Monday, January 19, 2009
monday blues to the ult
dragged myself all the way from home to sch *lucky dad fetched* to study.i dun think i did alot. but i guess it beats studying at home, where the bed is constantly beckoning to me. have been trying to study every night but i never fail to doze off in bed. its like a perfect lullaby. with magic spells and wicca.
was studying and thinking about a whole shit load of things. what have i done to myself? the more time i spend alone sitting down in the library. thinking about unsolved tutorials and stuff, the more emo i feel. and i thought watching the wx's bdae video would help a tad. since its so comical. but oh my. i guess it failed me. for once, i feel like weeping when i view such hilarious stuff. its just that whiff of sadness. and self melacholy. everyone seem to be wallowing in self pity. like all of us are trying to compete who deserves the most pity and sympathy. its like that lethal disease that plagues all of us. let me try to psycho myself back to the sunny track. think about all the wonderful stuff that's out there! count my blessings! i have such a wonderful mummy and daddy! and so many friends. what more can i ask for?
every single step i try to pull myself up from the darkness and it is taking so much effort. and i try to pull people along with me too. but i am only one person. cant help much even if i want to.
haven been having much of peaceful sleep the past few days. i duno for whatever reason. but i just keep waking up during the wee hours of the night. and it has been like that for the past few days. i am really tired and i really want to sleep well man. teh sunny side up of all these fitful sleep seem to be bringing qute abit of unrest and shock for my mum.like when i woke up in the middle of the night, i walked over to my parents room and just nice she spotted me standing there at the door in white. haha. and she really jumped. aiya. quite funny. but haha. i really should stop that. my eye bags are getting BIGGER & BIGGER by the day...
i shall pull away! wun take any backwash any more! just hang in there!
Posted by mistifier at 2:51 PM