Thursday, March 30, 2006
long long day
its been a long long day full of food.haha.basically started off the day straight with a decent breakfast(prawn mee) with my parents and then headed back to nj for food trail.and guess what!the food trail actually mean eating the same food 6 times at 6 different places.and my group got PRAWN mee and roti prata.haha.so damn hilarious.and i got anitha,cynthia,xiuyi,xinlin in the same team.but later on,we had yanru,xiumin and claire joining us due to poor attendence in the other group.ahha.that means we have another 2 food:laksa and fishball noodle added on to our list.but who cares?we just ate what we wanted.the places we have to go to are:toa payoh HDB hub koufu food court,bukit timah food center,alexander food center,tekka mall food court,adam food center and oops.i forgot the last one.
hehe.the variety of food we ate are like wow.cant believe that we ate so much.
we consumed: laksa
fish ball noodles
rojak
prawn mee
burger king cheese sticks,burgers
carrot cake
famous amos double chocolate pecan cookies
tang yuan
ice kacang
fried kway teow
fried shanghai bao
honeydew milk
sugarcane
soyabean milk
soft drinks
*we missed out totally on prata!oops.argh.and the long anticipated satay bee hoon.cynthia especially was so adamant on having it that you pratically can see her drooling all over.haha.
guess its really surprising thing is that each of us only spent $1 on all these food!!!hmm..maybe a little +/- here and there la.with cynthia around to say:'aiYa.no need la.'
we definitely an save alot.haha.its like so wow.all thanks to our teacher who gave us $20!!waahahha.
after eating all the above,we proceeded back to nj to get their well deserved stamps.and its just like 3+?haha.ended up helping out a little with the interact room.and its really a little.haha.and i ended up eating again!!but luckily its just fruits and oh well,some chocolate pillows and cola gummy.oops.its like time flies..and its already time to go meet our 'royal highness' for dinner.
jiaying,kaisiang,mi,sihui,victor and jaslyn went suntec to celebrate justin's birthday.had a nice dinner at nydc and we ended up in peals of laughters.haha.we made a song dedication*accidentally in love* at the fountain of wealth!!especially to 'our royal highness'.haha.the laser performance was so spectacular.super sweet and nice.wana melt.cant help but think of someone.oops.
spent quite some time watching and went to carrefour to buy ice cream!!!cookies and cream.its so nice.omg.think i gained 3kg le la.maybe even more than that.on top of that,we even had marshmallow.xinlin and wenhao also joined us after that.ended up on the rooftop of suntec.didnt even know such a place existed.
it was a fun day but argh.the thought of tomorrow kinda puts me off.hehe.have the xiangsheng competition!!argh.wonder how i am supposed to 'guide' the rest when i myself is quite clueless on what is going on.but think on the bright side,i have movies to catch tml.perhaps love and an english literature movie!!and goody bag.ahha.
Posted by mistifier at 11:10 PM
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
taste of heaven
basically went to jurong east in the morning just to update my zen.somehow it worked perfectly after some treatment there.but oh well,had a fun time talking with cynthia and eating!!oops.we are simply crazy when it comes to food.had quite a nice 'lunch' at the pasar malam there.though it was not a really proper lunch.but its been a long long time since i had such food.then i rushed back to nj for uni talks!!and i really have to take my hat off the various universities.they can end up suaning each other.and omg nus is bloody boring.i am so so utterly bored by the vice dean.smu is a little better and interesting but oh well,i guess the talks doesnt really matter.it's our choice and courses that matters.
after the talks,its another round of rushing sround for the cldds stuff and then interact!!
and omg,time and again,the aircon failed us again.and the fun part is i went orchard after that to buy stuff.ended up eating FRIED MARS BAR WITH VANILLA ICECREAM!!omg!!its really nice.*other then the fact that it was rather sinful+i ate a snicker bar earlier in the day*oops.
Posted by mistifier at 10:40 PM
get a grip
omg!!i feel so slack.don't feel like doing anything but stay in one corner and finish my books.but very often,you don't get to do the things you wana do.let me vent a little frustrations about ytd night.feel like such a loser.why do i always have to give in to him whenever he wants to use the comp?and the point is he uses it to play maple!!!freak!!what else does he know other than maple?and can you believe it?whenever i use the comp and he wants to use it,he'll be standing right behind me,monitoring my every move!!!argh.i just dont enjoy being supervised k.get the hell off.i want my privacy.shall try to stand up and fend for myself a bit more.maybe just a teeny weeny bit.cant risk getting beaten up.haha.fighting with him with brute strength is just plain stupid la.mi against him?forget it.anyway,ended the night reading my book and listening to the stupid creative mp3 player which is haywire again!!!!!!!cant shut down properly.argh.have to make a trip down to jurong east again and there goes all my songs then!!
and stupid gary.we are changing the tutition time again.he must be mad to suggest 745pm.my brain would have stopped functioning by then and imagine the time we get home with school the next day.wonder when will it be postponed to.everyone's timings seem to crash.well..maybe not everyone,but just some of us ba.we all know it.they are just forever so dilly dally and wishy washy at fixing the time.i just dont like fixing stuff at the last minute.love my boonee.she'll understand me.
spend the whole morning marketing with mom and argh.disgusting ah pek with touchy hand!!keep your hands to yourselves can.don't move around so much and smoke through.feel so disgusted.*shrudders*
went back home feeling grossed out and a pile of stuff to do.some chores and more chores.but i gonna get ot of the house soon.going to swim with wx and hopefully get a little tan despite the chilly weather.
shall come back home and really start work.maybe can tackle the gp hmwk 1st.hah.but omg!!haven started on the script!!gonecase le.somehow i am quite fascinated by the 'importance of being kaypoh' and hopefully i can come up with something along that line.it's only a small front stage crew and they manage to pull off a nice skit.need to really really buck up on that.
realised that i have been grumbling alot these days and i really sound like a spoilt brat.but come on.i need a channel to let out all my pekchek-ness.i rather write about it then to bother people about it and get them pekchek as well.both ways,i feel abit better.so why not take one that causes the least trouble?
need to go continue with the chores le...
Posted by mistifier at 1:57 AM
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
haha.had a fun time with wx.ended up soaking in the pool for like 1+hour and talking while i enjoy the rays of sunlight.ahha.somehow i am a little darker!!*hurray!!*after that,we went for our super late lunch at 4+.haha.we ended up in sumo house and shared the cold noodles!!i was quite surprised actually that they really put ice into the bowl with the noodles.but it was nice.hehe. and i bought a skirt!!a purple one with a bit of lace trimming.its realli abit.and gt bugged by the cldds teacher.nag here and there and argh.the respective ics are so slow in their replies and stuff.call them they dont even pick up.wth.
Posted by mistifier at 7:53 PM
Monday, March 27, 2006
1st day of enrichment week
it's really funny having this enrichment week.like too slack?haha.just a weird feeling.somehow we spent the whole day slacking.,hanging out at kap talking for a very very long time.then we went to gardenia for our activity.it's quite nice actually.but seeing them throw away so much bread is like so wasteful la.like playing with blocks of sponge.*ouch*but somehow,to them,it's like 'maintaining the quality of bread.'after that i took a hour long bus journey back home from clementi!!!ahha.but it was ok.i had my novel to keep me company.so mesmerised with the book.
oh.got a beri nice friendship band and postcard from huishan and cynthia.thanks gals.
supposed to have a meeting with the teacher today.but i am so exasperated la.she was on mc and didnt even bother informing me about it.it's like i have to inform the rest of it.then she was like:'sorry,i forgot to tell you that i am on mc.'wth.she's so IRRESPONSIBLE.is that what i can always expect from cldds?crap la.i thought i was slack enough but oh well,there's is always someone worse i guess.
argh.coming back home isn't much better too i guess.bombarded with naggings and brother and sis.hate it.so suffocating.
christ,you know that i'll always love you.
i'll never say goodbye....
omg.its so sweet or should i say sad?
Posted by mistifier at 9:48 PM
Sunday, March 26, 2006
really hate them!!
why cant the people reply sms???argh.makes things so troublesome for us.i am not trying to be country-ist k.but the PRCs really sets mi burning with urge to scold them.so slack and don't even have the common sense to reply.i am not going to be bothered with them anymore.if they continue to be so irritating,there's no way i am going to be polite to them and stuff.i'll just express my discontentment and yap.bad things really come all at the same time.arghhhh!!!Posted by mistifier at 8:53 PM
mi,myself and i
my bruise hurts.and guess what.my parents were kinda shocked about the bruise.they were like 'what did you do?'haha.it is kinda funny.it is a day without parents hanging aroind.had the whole house to myself.but i guess i don't like the feeling of being alone.so went out to orchard to support sihui with his candy selling with justin.went to pastamania for lunch!!then after that went to look for zx.feels nice having him around.haix.feel so tired.and its reallly blur of me to lose my enrichment week card again.argh.cant seem to locate it anywhere.this is really my day i guess.freaking tired.hmm..don't understand why though.didn't do anything much but feel so so tired.
omg.now i do miss the being alone on the house part.my parents are back.and just because my dad's car is spoilt doesnt give him the right to throw his stupid temper and scold vulgarity.it's his owm bloody attitude that irks people.that surely spoilt my already ok mood and lower it to a really foul mood.and my mum adds on to it by nagging me about my blueblack.ask me put egg,oilment etc.argh.they are really getting on my nerves.and my sis keeps on bothering me about her stuff.i am so not interested la.omg.i am really really pissed with my dad.argh.can he stop commenting on me.the way i talk and HELLO i sound pissed and irritated because you are so grumpy and keep on picking on me.what do you expect from me?smile at you for picking on me?forget it.hope all the bad feelings fade away real soon.wana enjoy my enrichment week tml.hope its not that boring.if not i gona run away!!!!!
run away from all the unhappiness and fly away to a land of my own.that'll be real nice...
Posted by mistifier at 7:23 PM
Saturday, March 25, 2006
hell of a day
ubin trip today was pretty scary for me.it was still quite alrite until i fell!!!!!haix.first time falling in ubin.*oops.its not as if i have been there alota times*scratched my RIGHT hand and my lap.ouch.gt blueblack and it's swollen.haha.but i am grateful for that.alex fell!!and his wounds are like so much more serious than mi la.i was so scared.was trembling while helping him and trying to put on a calm and brave front.but i know i was really freaked out.haix.think this bike thing is going to make me become paranoid for some time.tho i like biking and the feeling of it all,but this just got into me la.saw the whole thing,the fall,the process,the helplessness of us human when someone is falling.it was bad enough for mi,boonee must have had it worse la.afterall she was behind mi and alex when we both fell.it must have been quite traumatising.the journey back was so dead.everyone was deadbeat after all the stuff.
mentally tired too.was like being so insensitive and all to her.without even realising it all.but seriously i was so clueless.argh.feel so helpless and all.*sobx*cant even put them into words.hmm.what can i say?i love you!!and glad to have you with mi through it all.thanks for bearing with me all this while and i shall really learn to put things on the table and settle them before they cool down.serious.its always the same problem over the years.argh.
beaten and weary..time to retire..
Posted by mistifier at 8:58 PM
Thursday, March 23, 2006
superman's dead!!
omg.this song has a freaking nice melody and i have to agree with the lyrics.have been repeating it for gezillion times le.just can't get it out of my head.can'y even concentrate on mugging the stupid skill A.haha.our lady peace
superman's dead
Do you worry that you're not liked
How long till you break
You're happy cause you smile
But how much can you fake
An ordinary boy, an ordinary name
But ordinary's just not good enough today
And ow, a woo woo
Ow, a woo woo
Ow, a woo woo
And ow, a woo woo
Ow, a woo woo
Ow, a woo woo
Alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone
I'm thinking
Why eieieie yeah superman's dead
Eieieie yeah is it in my head
Eieieie yeah we'll just laugh instead
Owwwwww worry about the weather and
Whether or not you should hate
And are you worried about your faith
Kneel down and obey
You're happy you're in love
You need someone to hate
An ordinary girl, an ordinary waist
But ordinary's just not good enough today
Alone alone alone alone alone alone alone alone
I'm thinking
Why eieieie yeah superman's dead
Eieieie yeah is it in my head
Eieieie yeah we'll just laugh instead
Owwwwww worry about the weather and
Whether or not you should hate
And ow, a woo woo
Ow, a woo woo
Ow, a woo woo
And ow, a woo woo
Ow, a woo woo
Ow, a woo woo
And ow, a woo woo
Ow, a woo woo
Ow, a woo woo
And ow, a woo woo
Ow, a woo woo
Ow, a woo woo
Why eieieie yeah ow ow
Why Eieieie yeah high highEieieie yeah ow owWhy Eieieie yeah high high
Doesn't anybody ever know
Doesn't anybody ever know
Doesn't anybody ever know
That the world's a subway, subway. high
Doesn't anybody ever know
Doesn't anybody ever know
Doesn't anybody ever know
That the world's a subway, subway high
That the world's a subway, subway high
Doesn't any, any, any, any, any
Doesn't any, any, any, any, any
Doesn't any, any, any, any, any
That the world's a subway, subway high
That the world's a subway, subway
Posted by mistifier at 4:50 PM
blocky day
serious blocked nose but the good thing is i am feeling freaking high..haha.god knows why.seem stress free but i know there's this huge pile of work waiting for me.isn't that fantastic??oops..let me make a list of things that i need to do in the short span of next week:
*xiangsheng competition stuff(contact and coordination)
*yechuan script and selection
*youth camp
*phy waves and oscillations +quiz!!
*maths pnc
*gp hmwk
*meeting up with boonee 4 our long awaited crystal jade!!!
*date with wx!!
*make contacts
*visit to kampong senang?
*more...
have a feeling i missed out something but it'll surface sooner or later..hah..feel like i am having no life..hmm..other than slacking at home and stuff,don't really see myself doing anything constructive.
been playing with rachel alot these days!!she clears my mind off all the chaotic stuff and i appreciate it alot.she is so amazingly cute.shall not care about what other people think of her.haha.realised she is a really funny gal tho.
feel like watching some lovey dovey or cosy warm movie all of a sudden but i don't see any coming out.argh.
"Love Is Only A Feeling"
The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met
And I knew that to you and into your life
I had to getI felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand
An assault my defences systematically failed to withstand
'Cos you came at a time
When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
Was the be all and end all
Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing
(It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway
The state of elation that this unison of hearts achievedI had seen,
I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed
That the light of my life
Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
Just to beam on you and I
Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing
(It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway, anyway
Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
And we've got to stop ourselves believing(It's here to stay)
'Cos love is only a feeling
Anyway.
like this song alot.it just strikes me with the so meaningful lyrics.like the band too.pretty cool style.
Posted by mistifier at 10:08 AM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
she's so cute!!!the star is just temporary covered by dark clouds.after the dark clouds clear and sunshine reappears,the star will be out again...dun ever lose faith..just hang in there and everything will be okie..xp
Posted by mistifier at 9:15 PM
post exam
all the major papers finally ended.what can i say?
i basically screwed up all the papers and my body clock.
things do blow over and we don't have much of a choice but to accept it.
things usually don't go the way we want it to.there's simply too much stuff going on and i am not catching up...time for a radical change.time to mark my words and mould into a real mugger.wonder how long i have been saying that..procrastination always manage to find its way here.guess i won't sense the urgency untill i fail big time.can we have both aspects of life at the same time?can i be both a mugger and a player?haha.plain greediness la.part of human nature.
enrichment week ahead of us.but with the amount of homework piled up, do they think we can get enriched?it's like every single subject we have to do stuff.self learning and revision quiz for maths and phy,thick stack of dunno what readings and questions for gp..argh..ought to attempt them all..
I think that somehow,we learn who we really are and then live with that decision.
Posted by mistifier at 6:21 PM
Friday, March 17, 2006
simple gal simple life
"Hotel California"On a dark desert highway, cool wind in my hair
Warm smell of colitas, rising up through the air
Up ahead in the distance, I saw shimmering light
My head grew heavy and my sight grew dim
I had to stop for the night
There she stood in the doorway;
I heard the mission bell
And I was thinking to myself,
'This could be Heaven or this could be Hell'
Then she lit up a candle and she showed me the way
There were voices down the corridor,
I thought I heard them say...
Welcome to the Hotel California
Such a lovely place (Such a lovely place)
Such a lovely face
Plenty of room at the Hotel California
Any time of year (Any time of year)
You can find it here
Her mind is Tiffany-twisted,
she got the Mercedes Benz
She got a lot of pretty, pretty boys she calls friends
How they dance in the courtyard, sweet summer sweat.
Some dance to remember, some dance to forget
So I called up the Captain,
'Please bring me my wine'
He said, 'We haven't had that spirit here since nineteen sixty nine'
And still those voices are calling from far away,
Wake you up in the middle of the night
Just to hear them say...
Welcome to the Hotel California
Such a lovely place (Such a lovely place)
Such a lovely face
They livin' it up at the Hotel California
What a nice surprise (what a nice suprise)
Bring your alibisMirrors on the ceiling,
The pink champagne on ice
And she said 'We are all just prisoners here, of our own device'
And in the master's chambers,
They gathered for the feast
They stab it with their steely knives,
But they just can't kill the beast
Last thing I remember, I wasRunning for the door
I had to find the passage back
To the place I was before
'Relax,' said the night man,
'We are programmed to receive.
You can check-out any time you like,
But you can never leave!'
Posted by mistifier at 8:35 PM
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
an overused phrase?
the phrase 'falling in love' has been used,reused and overused so many times that its meaning has become as dilute as water..who can define 'falling in love'?the feeling of it?its all but something created by people?was talking about it with bim.and it just made perfect nonsense or should i say sense?getting really emotional these days.thinking of all sorts of things.perhaps its just the stress getting to me..i am like so deprived of happiness that simple things like eating ice cream and get me happy or i looked so.i was lost in thought la.but surprisingly jy said i looked happy?hmm..haha.thats funny.just not feeling right la..
the stress is getting up to my neck..on the verge of breaking down..
Posted by mistifier at 7:55 PM
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
where do i get the strength from??
feel like a complete loser..it's just a simple maths package and i am taking a hell of a time doing it.and not only that, what about my other subjects?argh..all i ask of you...
no more talk of darkness
forget this why i fear
i'm here nothing can harm you
my words will warm and calm you
let me be your freedom
let daylight dry your tears
i'm here with me beside you
to guard you and to guide you
say u'll love me every waking moment
turn my hate with all the solemn time
say you need me with you now and always
promise me that all you say is true
that's all i ask of you
let me be your shelter let me be your light
your're safe, no one will find you
your fears are far behind you
all i want is freedom
a world with no more night
and you always beside me
to hold me and to guide me
then say u'll share with me one love one lifetime,
let me lead you from your solitude
say you need me with you here beside me
anywhere you go let me go too
christine that's all i ask of you
say one word and i'll follow you.
say u'll share with me one love one lifetime
say the word and i'll follow you
share each day with me each night each moment
say you love me(you love i do)
love me that's all i ask of you
Posted by mistifier at 9:03 PM
Monday, March 13, 2006
always on my mind...
my way of showing concern for someone is just different ba.i may appear to be heck about it but i really do care.maybe its my phrasing or my expression but its time that proves my concern i guess.i don't have to be constantly seeing or calling you to be concerned..but its enough to know that you know i do..hmm..i love you as much as i love myself?yap.though i never tell you before in these way but i really treasure all the times we had together and all la.i doubt i'll ever find someone like you again..maybe just close to that..but never the same.i can't imagine what will happen if u were out of my life some day.serious.no matter how seldom we meet and talk and stuff.i don't wana go deeper and think of all the things i dun want to happen.guess i am just avoiding all of them.but i sincerely wish you all the best k.and that everything is okie.it seems like i am getting from bad to worst!!can't concentrate and focus!!argh..need to do something about it..my brain is full of sleeping and slacking!!oops..
What if one day i just pass away and all the things that i wanna do remain unaccomplished??will i die with regrets and groans about why i did certain thing that way or treat some1 badly?argh..why do we have to live thinking about all these stuff!!
and why is it that people go around in circles when all they wana do is say something really simple.it really irks me.why am i doing all the stuff that i am doing?is it for me or for the sake of doing it?or for the kids?should i continue with it?just do what i am supposed to do or do more?is it all worth it?qns i wana seek answers to.......
oh my.i am getting so pessi and why am i thinking so much??just live and enjoy!time to wake up and back to muggin!!!
missing people is so not nice...
Posted by mistifier at 10:43 PM
Sunday, March 12, 2006
my mind'll rule over me!!
just adopted guiny!!a penguin of my own.isn't that interesting?*thanks boonee for telling me about the adoption thing!!and oh gosh,we reali haven met up for a very long time le..miss ya!!haven been hearing much from u..but from the outlook of it,u haven been feeling very well these days huh..must take care..*
oh well,it's back to reality time.term break for us to mug!!pressed for time but hey guys,we'll try our best!!gambatei ppl!!
have been seeing so many sad people around me..*ouch*just don't like that feeling..hope i can do stuff to try help them cheer up.the truth is i am getting quite cynical about life too..am trying hard to banish that thought away!!
heard something quite disturbing.."volunteering can be quite complicated you know?there can be conflicts and arguements and even scheming people around..you never know what is happening in the center..''these are not the exact words but i tried to remember what i heard from one of the older volunteers..what i thought as simple pure volunteering can be so complicated..it is sad..really sad..i like volunteering but can i deal with all the politics?hmm..maybe i am dwelling too much into the matter..but i am glad to say that i have yet to see the dark side..
the suicide really shocked me..thought i can handle the sight of it bt i can't.it stayed in my mind for ages..it's the suddenness and unbelievablilty of the suicide that scares me.one day i can see her smiling and saying hi and the next day i see her dead?it's like so sudden.have she been putting on a facade for everyone to see??is life really so unbearable for her?that she had to resort to suicide?her courage to jump off?did she regret it the moment she jumped?did she wish she had the chance to turn back?.....these questions ran through my head and i guess no1 knows the answer except her..
school life brightened up a little because of you gals..i am sure u all know who i am refering to..hehe..we have so much in common and there's no nid for any facade in front of u gals.really grateful for all your company..*xm,c,hs,yr,jy,...*
it isn't life that matters, its the people and the things you do that makes the difference..