Sunday, October 19, 2008
grumpy bear
well well,. i guess the grumpy bear actually shows how i am feeling. HAHA. he look so sad and cute.
sea trainings these days are dreadful for me. i dont even feel like going at all. especially when i duno if i'll even get to hold me paddle and dip it into the water. DRAGGED myself to trgs. or i'll keep damn bloddy quiet once i step into sdba.SIZE DOES MATTER! i am holding a GIGANTIC paddle aka ruddle and yet i am feeling worse than before. i would rather hold me pink paddle. and flirt with it non stop man. these are times when i would prefer it SMALL.
battling with inner conflicts isnt fun at all. how long have i tried? maybe 1+month?bits are me are already eaten away by the weariness of it all. what is the point of me hanging in strong there when everything seem not to be worth it at all? will there be a point when my rebellious side kicks in and take over me totally? will there than be people saying i am selfish and irresponsible? haha. i dont doubt that at all. like they ever care. why am i doing all these despite getting all the black faces from EVERYWHERE? isnt my family,zx,friends more impt than IT? sighs. sometimes it hard to do things you THOUGHT you LIKED. have been losing so much sleep over this. the hidden tears shed. only my fellow buddies will know. and now the no of fellow buddies is officially set at 3. HAHA.
Friday's ME class. and xy's weekly contribution of titbits. this week its choc! yummy!
now you see it
now you dont! disgusting perks stuffed all the wrappers into the mentos stick. I DIDNT HELP AT ALL. hee.
my hot pink hippo back in action! after practising the MIA act for so long.
met up with silin mich and shu for dinner on fri! and its SOUP SPOON at raffles place. hee. BOSTON CLAM CHOWDER is yummy! all of us were so tired that we left for home befre 9pm. sighs. why is life so tiring these days. so taxing. but its such short and substantial meet ups that made our tiring days seem alil better!ps. i miss zx. sighs. hes away fro the wkend. and i seriously feel like we din talk much last week. credits to ms how. yes. tats me.