Tuesday, June 27, 2006

gross day

its the beginning of the common test. and it suxed. counting down to the no of days left. totally flunked my maths paper (hope i can get like 30 marks? oops) and not to mention the atrocious gp. the topic was fine. but the AQ and summary was super suxy.

all these are not the worse yet. after a super long day at school with tests and all, i had to go home to a naggy mum. it is understandable that she gets a little naggy but i a kind of put off. like i expect to go home and rest but she just shot me like a shotgun.

point 1
she asked me how were my papers and i told her i cant do my maths. that was when hell broke loose. relationship issues. like how i neglected my studies after i started dating? but oh well. what the freak. even if i am not dating, i would still be as slack.

point 2
i have changed? yes. i agree. but i don't go around murdering people or what. its just that i have become more slack. i'll get my drive back though. promise. and i am sorry for having changed into such a bad girl. will get my priorities right. i want my 3 As.

point 3
why is it that if i dunno how to do my maths questions and u start to nag at me? when i ask you why din you nag at bro for his results, you say its ok. what is the great difference? ok. he earn his own keeps. he stays out the whole day. he can have his girlfriends. i always rely on you guys. i am very lazy. i dont do household work. i dont wash my own clothes. it is not as if bro does any of the above. and i really cant stand the son daughter thing. girls must do work. its ok for guys. its a different generation! oh freak.

point 4
maybe i should not spend so much time dating if that is what you guys want. *pissed*
i am not stepping over my limits. and now i shall reinforce my stand. have faith in me.

point 5
scared. you cant die and i believe you wun. after slogging for so long, i believe you have all the good karma? will try to help you more. but you know the kind of person i am. lazy. and cant hang on for long. but i shall remind myself k. and i'll promise to support her if you are not here anymore. even though she's not in the least appreciative.

i am sorry . i love you. will change for the better. was so pissed just now. but after writing all out, i have come to the sense that i am in the wrong.

ps. i'll prove you guys wrong. you can juggle both studies and relationship at the same time.

Posted by mistifier at 11:12 AM