Sunday, March 12, 2006
my mind'll rule over me!!
just adopted guiny!!a penguin of my own.isn't that interesting?*thanks boonee for telling me about the adoption thing!!and oh gosh,we reali haven met up for a very long time le..miss ya!!haven been hearing much from u..but from the outlook of it,u haven been feeling very well these days huh..must take care..*
oh well,it's back to reality time.term break for us to mug!!pressed for time but hey guys,we'll try our best!!gambatei ppl!!
have been seeing so many sad people around me..*ouch*just don't like that feeling..hope i can do stuff to try help them cheer up.the truth is i am getting quite cynical about life too..am trying hard to banish that thought away!!
heard something quite disturbing.."volunteering can be quite complicated you know?there can be conflicts and arguements and even scheming people around..you never know what is happening in the center..''these are not the exact words but i tried to remember what i heard from one of the older volunteers..what i thought as simple pure volunteering can be so complicated..it is sad..really sad..i like volunteering but can i deal with all the politics?hmm..maybe i am dwelling too much into the matter..but i am glad to say that i have yet to see the dark side..
the suicide really shocked me..thought i can handle the sight of it bt i can't.it stayed in my mind for ages..it's the suddenness and unbelievablilty of the suicide that scares me.one day i can see her smiling and saying hi and the next day i see her dead?it's like so sudden.have she been putting on a facade for everyone to see??is life really so unbearable for her?that she had to resort to suicide?her courage to jump off?did she regret it the moment she jumped?did she wish she had the chance to turn back?.....these questions ran through my head and i guess no1 knows the answer except her..
school life brightened up a little because of you gals..i am sure u all know who i am refering to..hehe..we have so much in common and there's no nid for any facade in front of u gals.really grateful for all your company..*xm,c,hs,yr,jy,...*
it isn't life that matters, its the people and the things you do that makes the difference..