happy halloween! If u ask me trick or treat?its always treat.heh.
Its quite weird not going trg for e wk.but i'll be back soon! Was looking through my mails when i chanced upon a letter which i wrote.its quite sad that most of e issues which i stated in e note,it isnt fulfilled.& its like been more than a year?
If complaining & whining doesnt help?what does?
I am pushing myself. & i'll continue to do so. :)
Posted by mistifier at 2:41 PM
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
home sweet home
after so many days in the hospi, home is really the sweetest place on earth man. but now i really really respect nurses. i can never be like them. and my ward's like a nursing home! its quite a morbid sight. i wonder if next time,i'll really be like that when i grow old. *shudders at the thought*
now that i am back home,started thinking about some stuff. maybe i am trying to hold on to too many stuff. sometiems, one'll learn a hard lesson to finally realise that they cant have everything that they want. & now i truly understand what it means to work so so hard for something to know that the ending gona be ugly. haha. cause thats what we are doing.
was watching part of a show with mummy. this gal fell asleep on an outdoor bench. this guy came along and lugged a potted plant with swinging branches over her head just to keep her out from the sun. how incredibly silly & sweet is that.
jiayou my honey & boarie! GO GO!
Posted by mistifier at 8:07 PM
Thursday, October 08, 2009
emo-lest!
sometimes,its much easier to understand other people than urself. I dun even know myself. All e loopholes & traps are hard to avoid & one day when u realise that u've fallen in, theres pretty much nothing u can do but try to make merry. HA.
I wonder if everything i've done is worth it. Do i really enjoy it or is it simply for goodness sake? Is e facade to be shed or is it to be firmly set in place? To defend or to strike?
Sometimes, e reason why u hang on to something when u know e process & e ending aint that great is for e good of e others. Sometimes i do wonder if people can get tired of each other or e kick is just gone. Poof. Gone. E act is carried on for e sake of it. Not because u want it. Sometimes,maybe what u once had is always e best.but just because u let go of it,there is no way u gona get it back. :)
Posted by mistifier at 7:58 PM
Thursday, September 17, 2009
out of sight out of mind?
din realise the weeks ahead are so packed until i started putting the events down in my organisor. seem like time's gona pass in a blur.
sometimes, setting ur heart on something aint enough. get into action! thats the way it should be. its kinda weird seeing my dear lil colleague mugging at work. i wonder if i'll start doing that next week.
and i really shouldnt let my emotions affect my stomach. somehow i can feel it coming back again. stay far far away from me man!
need to get a hold on my often wandering,cynical,gullible mind. even i myself find it contradicting but its so true. who do i trust? who do i doubt? tough isnt it?
'i'll never let you fall,i'll stand up with u forever. i'll be there for you through it all,even if saving you sends me to heaven.'
i think i wana go try via ferrata! looks damn fun! haha. shall try to plan and slot one day! takers?? think i'll go drag honey to go! haha
Posted by mistifier at 5:39 PM
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
regrets?
i guess this is a damn apt song when u speak of regrets. just letting the thoughts wonder alil bit.too many words will just spoil the mood.
caught 'time traveler's wife' wth bony and my oh my, i do like the show. ultra sad i would say. its the kind of show that makes me yearn for an embrace to make everything go away.
emotional turmoil drains me of all my energy. and i guess its what i think i have been in for the past few weeks. it seem to have improved alil. make it all go away! let me be spoiled for once. make my pleads come true.
school gonna start once again and i am definitely keen on making it a good and fruitful year. esp it being the last year and all. just let me finish up my degree and i'll make everything else work. really. everything.
Posted by mistifier at 11:04 PM
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
have you ever thought.just maybe.you belong with me?
haha. in response to chiam's tag, why haven i updated for so long? well, i am lazy? i cant really express whatever i feel in a blog where everything is so public?hmm. its selective entries i guess. but i shall gladly do up an entry today!
for the past weeks, haven been trying to fix a date to meet up with bony and ed-y. but it never ever materialise. so i think now, its like one of the top things to do.
my random list: 1) quickly get a date okay for all the 3 of us to meet! 2) private date with bony? 3) oh man! bimbo sh i wana meet u all! 3) proposals! X 2 4) i think i need to see wx and michie for another time before they fly off! 5) i think i need a visit to the beach just to sort out myself. 6) a job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!for me to get away form tutoring exasperations! 7) more time to spare to stay at home and show my pretty face to my darling daddy! 8) i want to run fast carry heavy!*i really really want to! and yet be small! pretty pls! 9) i want to taper my horrible horrible temper! 10) i ought to learn how to take it easy. maybe i have high expectations? which not everyone can meet? 11) i want to be sure of what i want. absolutely. totally. dun like the feeling of uncertainty. maybe i am just a nutter for control! HAH! 12) i wana read minds! so that i know what i am feeling is right and so right.
its amazing how some people can be so deriliously in love when the other half remains untouched. and the sad thing is they dun get it. and continues to plunge in. is that called love is blind? on the other hand, some just disregard whats happening all around and plunge into a world of pretty images and sweet nothings without realising it. even when the mind's pretty set to undergo overhaul,once thy set foot into the other world, the overhaul is clean forgotten.
Posted by mistifier at 9:12 AM
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
post exam mood swings...
typically, i really expected happiness. but i feel weird. like the end aint the end yet. more of like a new beginning. it basically sucked. i never felt this bad before. much as i dun want what i expected to come true, i think it will. at least i have quite a few months to brace myself up for it. such an utter disappointment to my mum. urgh. for now, let me just try to enjoy whatever i can enjoy. good things dun last.
went back for training and i kind of dread it. quite worried about me not being able to catch up with the rest in terms of fitness. i know myself. need to put in double to catch up. on a lighter note,sea rowing so far so good! like rowers are starting to come back together as one and train together. train hard my dears. its only for this crucial month!
i have no idea why. but it seem to be getting worse. like i duno whats wrong with it. all of a sudden, it can just act up. horrible. terrible. yikes. i should and shall start to take steps to prevent it man. starting with NO KOPI! stop mi if u ever hear me say i wana drink kopi k.
i am a poor bloke for this month and the next! not gona get any job so that it wun clash with training. so no splurging! sadded. but this is what they meant by 'you reap what you sow'. haha. just remind yourself. its only THIS month!
time to get some reading done. really missed those times when all i do is just slack in sone corner and start reading all the bimbotic books. heh.
and yes! finally celebrated bimbo and ed's birthdays! baaaa. thanks for waiting for me! its like finally finally. glad to see u all again!
yayyay! going to sentosa with my darling bony soon! maybe we'll have a small picnic and some frolicking in the water. ahahhah!