mysteries

Looking beyond.

2010-07-19T12:07:00.000+08:00

The chapter has ended. Its no fairytale ending but nonetheless i am glad.
It marks a whole new beginning.
Sometimes,it takes years to realise how ugly it can be.
All the demons shed their facades & reveal their true colours.
& the saints who sinned suffers the wrath of the harmed.
But its always that way isnt it? The best master in disguise always triump.
Its e demon's duty to sin but saints are punished for committing sins.unjust.
Suddenly i see. But oh wells. Sod it. Let me just begin my next chapter. With relish! =D

=(

2010-06-07T11:32:00.000+08:00

Purpose? Bite me.

2010-06-02T09:19:00.003+08:00

sometimes i really wonder is it worth it that he doesnt seem appreciative at all. Instead just turns around & bite u. Like i want to do this deliberately. Not everyone has the luxury to do just sit & wait or their parents to shower them
with money. Its hardly reasonable isnt it? I know u are anxious & all. But u think by saying those stuff u are encouraging us? Hell no.
Right now,its pretty much a shit feeling & i dun even know how to react to u. Like duh.
Dun make me lose my respect for u.period. Once its gone,its hard to earn it back.
=(
sadded.

"I went to sleep last night
Tired from the fight
I've been fighting for tomorrow
All my life
Yea I woke up this morning
Feeling brand new
'Cause the dreams that I've been dreaming
Has finally came true."

Life is indeed very short...

2010-05-31T11:36:00.005+08:00

It seem like such a morbid day.
Death, hospital. What else can happen. Its like her sudden departure provoked some serious thoughts in the few of us.
Life is short. But how do we go about living our short life?
Do we live for others? Or do we live for ourselves?
Its a choice. Do we live each day with regrets? Or we learn & not accumulate anymore regrets?
I was asking her. What regrets do u have? We started talking about it...
sadly,up till this point of time,i do regret doing some things.but i learnt to stomach it down.
I have to say i am still pretty lost in my life's direction.

Exams ended officially. But it feels like of funny.like me & perks were talking.Lost?
& initially i thought i would have alot more time on hand. But once i start filling in my organisor,i realise i am so wrong. Ha.
But it feels good. For a change. No more squeezing of brain juice! Now its all physical exertion. =s

smile a little smile for me.

2010-01-28T09:46:00.003+08:00

it is weird isnt it? how greedy we humanoids are. greedy to want everything. when we know its barely manageable.
we WANT to play.
we WANT to enjoy.
we WANT to be to have part of EVERYTHING.
but seriously,i think sometimes we NEED to sit down and think about what we NEED. not what we WANT.
wake up call for all! to myself to. i need a smack on my big block head.
sometimes i try to convince myself that what i do is for somebody else. but ultimately,it could be just a selfish desire i want for myself. its just human nature to NOT admit to stuff which we deem as selfish. yikes.

should we be satistified with what we have and learn not to make comparisons or should we try to change the situation?
maybe we should just restart! hah. then i can just restart my 2009.

COME ON! LETS JUST BE OPTIMISTIC.

made my study plans but seems like i am not following it very well. definitely moving. but not fast enough. gona kick my own ass soon.
what are plans for if i dun follow ms how! shingz.

will u smile a little smile for me?
will u dream for me?
or maybe will u think a little for me?

bony is coming back soon! well. just a short visit.but its still! happy! bet shes gona catch up on her lost bbts!

lovely festive december?

2009-12-17T18:36:00.004+08:00

oh man! it suddenly dawn upon me that 2009 gona be over in just abit. less than a month. its like i barely know what i've been up to for the year. Did i even achieve anything or hit my personal goal? Hah.

alamak! I think i just lost my 2nd organisor in e short span of one year.argh. & goondu me rely so much on that tiny book.shikes.
Maybe i ought not to rely on anything at all. In case e loss of it shatters dear lil ms how here.

& i just realise i am like addicted to e mudpie in school. Gawd. & theres not a single time i eat it w/o getting e brownie & icecream everywhere. Maybe i should just eat more as practice.hehheh.

Who says once race is over we'll have more time? holey holey shit. I feel like i have so much lesser time. Why? Hmmm..

Watched 'sweet november' finally. Halfway through. its kinda weird but somehow such clique romance never fail to get to us. Like e usu 'ohhh' & 'awww' will just find its way out of our mouths. sicky sweet & sad.

is it the end?

2009-12-01T16:15:00.003+08:00

'looking back on the things i've done.i was trying to be someone.i played my part,kept u in e dark...'

one way or another,we'll tend to look back & wonder why we did this?why we did that?why did it even happen?clouds of confusion & foolish-iness will seep in & its when we realise we have grown up. For better or for worse,it really depends. have i played my part as a daughter?sister?friend?girlfriend?me? Wow.heavy shit.

'i'm here with my confessions,got nth to hide no more.i dont know where to start.but to show u e shape of my heart..'

I have done what i think was right & i suppose theres so much more i can do but theres only so much i can do...

'try to understand that i'm trying to make a move to stay in e game.i try to stay awake & rmb my name but everybody's changing i dont feel e same.'

sometimes,it feels like being swept away by e waves & u are just vulnerable to all of it.but sometimes,u can just ride on e wave & take control of e situation.it only takes a split second for e reversal of roles. :)

cross junction...

2009-11-25T10:58:00.002+08:00

when one chapter closes,it marks e beginning of the next. But when u are at a cross junction,its time to make a choice. If e choices are independent,its not that bad.but when its not,& it comes with so many strings attached,it makes things so much more complicated.

lazy wkend?hell no!

2009-10-31T14:41:00.002+08:00

happy halloween! If u ask me trick or treat?its always treat.heh.

Its quite weird not going trg for e wk.but i'll be back soon! Was looking through my mails when i chanced upon a letter which i wrote.its quite sad that most of e issues which i stated in e note,it isnt fulfilled.& its like been more than a year?

If complaining & whining doesnt help?what does?

I am pushing myself. & i'll continue to do so. :)

home sweet home

2009-10-28T20:07:00.002+08:00

after so many days in the hospi, home is really the sweetest place on earth man. but now i really really respect nurses. i can never be like them. and my ward's like a nursing home! its quite a morbid sight. i wonder if next time,i'll really be like that when i grow old. *shudders at the thought*

now that i am back home,started thinking about some stuff. maybe i am trying to hold on to too many stuff. sometiems, one'll learn a hard lesson to finally realise that they cant have everything that they want. & now i truly understand what it means to work so so hard for something to know that the ending gona be ugly. haha. cause thats what we are doing.

was watching part of a show with mummy.
this gal fell asleep on an outdoor bench. this guy came along and lugged a potted plant with swinging branches over her head just to keep her out from the sun. how incredibly silly & sweet is that.

jiayou my honey & boarie! GO GO!

emo-lest!

2009-10-08T19:58:00.001+08:00

sometimes,its much easier to understand other people than urself. I dun even know myself. All e loopholes & traps are hard to avoid & one day when u realise that u've fallen in, theres pretty much nothing u can do but try to make merry. HA.

I wonder if everything i've done is worth it. Do i really enjoy it or is it simply for goodness sake? Is e facade to be shed or is it to be firmly set in place? To defend or to strike?

Sometimes, e reason why u hang on to something when u know e process & e ending aint that great is for e good of e others. Sometimes i do wonder if people can get tired of each other or e kick is just gone. Poof. Gone. E act is carried on for e sake of it. Not because u want it.
Sometimes,maybe what u once had is always e best.but just because u let go of it,there is no way u gona get it back. :)

out of sight out of mind?

2009-09-17T17:39:00.004+08:00

din realise the weeks ahead are so packed until i started putting the events down in my organisor. seem like time's gona pass in a blur.

sometimes, setting ur heart on something aint enough. get into action! thats the way it should be. its kinda weird seeing my dear lil colleague mugging at work. i wonder if i'll start doing that next week.

and i really shouldnt let my emotions affect my stomach. somehow i can feel it coming back again. stay far far away from me man!

need to get a hold on my often wandering,cynical,gullible mind. even i myself find it contradicting but its so true. who do i trust? who do i doubt? tough isnt it?

'i'll never let you fall,i'll stand up with u forever. i'll be there for you through it all,even if saving you sends me to heaven.'

i think i wana go try via ferrata! looks damn fun! haha. shall try to plan and slot one day! takers?? think i'll go drag honey to go! haha

regrets?

2009-09-16T23:04:00.003+08:00

i guess this is a damn apt song when u speak of regrets. just letting the thoughts wonder alil bit.too many words will just spoil the mood.

caught 'time traveler's wife' wth bony and my oh my, i do like the show. ultra sad i would say. its the kind of show that makes me yearn for an embrace to make everything go away.

emotional turmoil drains me of all my energy. and i guess its what i think i have been in for the past few weeks. it seem to have improved alil. make it all go away! let me be spoiled for once. make my pleads come true.

school gonna start once again and i am definitely keen on making it a good and fruitful year. esp it being the last year and all. just let me finish up my degree and i'll make everything else work. really. everything.

have you ever thought.just maybe.you belong with me?

2009-07-21T09:12:00.003+08:00

haha. in response to chiam's tag, why haven i updated for so long? well, i am lazy? i cant really express whatever i feel in a blog where everything is so public?hmm. its selective entries i guess. but i shall gladly do up an entry today!

for the past weeks, haven been trying to fix a date to meet up with bony and ed-y. but it never ever materialise. so i think now, its like one of the top things to do.

my random list:
1) quickly get a date okay for all the 3 of us to meet!
2) private date with bony?
3) oh man! bimbo sh i wana meet u all!
3) proposals! X 2
4) i think i need to see wx and michie for another time before they fly off!
5) i think i need a visit to the beach just to sort out myself.
6) a job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!for me to get away form tutoring exasperations!
7) more time to spare to stay at home and show my pretty face to my darling daddy!
8) i want to run fast carry heavy!*i really really want to! and yet be small! pretty pls!
9) i want to taper my horrible horrible temper!
10) i ought to learn how to take it easy. maybe i have high expectations? which not everyone can meet?
11) i want to be sure of what i want. absolutely. totally. dun like the feeling of uncertainty. maybe i am just a nutter for control! HAH!
12) i wana read minds! so that i know what i am feeling is right and so right.

its amazing how some people can be so deriliously in love when the other half remains untouched. and the sad thing is they dun get it. and continues to plunge in. is that called love is blind?
on the other hand, some just disregard whats happening all around and plunge into a world of pretty images and sweet nothings without realising it. even when the mind's pretty set to undergo overhaul,once thy set foot into the other world, the overhaul is clean forgotten.

post exam mood swings...

2009-05-27T19:51:00.002+08:00

typically, i really expected happiness. but i feel weird. like the end aint the end yet. more of like a new beginning. it basically sucked. i never felt this bad before. much as i dun want what i expected to come true, i think it will. at least i have quite a few months to brace myself up for it. such an utter disappointment to my mum. urgh. for now, let me just try to enjoy whatever i can enjoy. good things dun last.

went back for training and i kind of dread it. quite worried about me not being able to catch up with the rest in terms of fitness. i know myself. need to put in double to catch up.
on a lighter note,sea rowing so far so good! like rowers are starting to come back together as one and train together.
train hard my dears. its only for this crucial month!

i have no idea why. but it seem to be getting worse. like i duno whats wrong with it. all of a sudden, it can just act up. horrible. terrible. yikes. i should and shall start to take steps to prevent it man. starting with NO KOPI! stop mi if u ever hear me say i wana drink kopi k.

i am a poor bloke for this month and the next! not gona get any job so that it wun clash with training. so no splurging! sadded. but this is what they meant by 'you reap what you sow'. haha.
just remind yourself. its only THIS month!

time to get some reading done. really missed those times when all i do is just slack in sone corner and start reading all the bimbotic books. heh.

and yes! finally celebrated bimbo and ed's birthdays! baaaa. thanks for waiting for me! its like finally finally. glad to see u all again!

yayyay! going to sentosa with my darling bony soon! maybe we'll have a small picnic and some frolicking in the water. ahahhah!

its KNOWING time!

2009-04-16T10:35:00.007+08:00

woke up early in the morning to be greeted by such a sight! awwww. how pleasant. and she smells yummy too. the baby powdery smell. heh. so huggable too!
quite a weird feeling. quite amazing i watched her grow up. from a teeny weeny baby in her mom's tummy to now!

next up! bony came my hse and haha! we just chatted n chatted and cam whored alil.

someone's hand always gets marked when he sleeps...

yummy yummy trets during the exams season...

half down!

my BK happy meal toy! haha. me and honey were quite fascinated by it that morning. heh.

snackies that mde our lectures seem oh so much better ... and its funny how come we can only find certain snacks in school and not outside...booboo! and they monopolise the market. pfft.

truth has to be unfolded sooner or later. so i thought why not now? haha.

been spending some time at macs and i have decided to make it my permanent study room! it seems to be the most productive place so far...

2009-04-14T11:08:00.003+08:00

in the mood for this song.. a very old but still a very nice song. heh.

omg! its like we have less than a month to exams! hope everyone's progressing on fine! i am trying to find that feeling to push! but its on and off. hmmm. omt!

dumty dumty. i have to learn to clear my own shit and do my own stuff. pfft.

perks! rarely see u! miss u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*huggies*

boonneeeeee darling! so glad we have been secretly meeting up to mug and lunch. heh. though its really ultra spur of the moment kind of mtgs. but we managed it. love ya!

chiam honey! u survived my meaniness and we are getting on just fine! when we each get disheartened, we'll help each other. i mean, if i dun tell u and u dun tell mi, who else can we tell right? heh.and i am so glad that after trgs, we have all those mugging sessions and chit chats tgt. muacks!

ments! thanks for listening to my grumbles! heh. and i am ever so glad to lend u my ears too! *winks*

joshie!thanks for the shoulder to cry on,ears to hear,eyes to see* for my clumsy times*,hands to hold and well. love ya.

sihui,anitha,ed! i miss u all! booboo! can barely recall the last time we met up! oh my! but fret not. i still rmb u guys!

i promise...

2009-04-09T15:36:00.002+08:00

i failed my swim test. booboo! i cant tread water. haha. sadded. but oh wells. it might be a blessing in disguise that i go for the aqua-pack course. quite fun to go to the pool with all the girlies. and i really appreciate the encouragement and efforts some of the stronger swimmers rendered to the weak swimmers.

rushed to niao's place after that and oh how i miss her man. just went to hug her when i saw her. heh. she wore a dress! haha. thats quite rare for her! but it was nice!
got her a manly watch which i think suits her. haha. and luckily we got a manly watch. if not it would be a total clash with her other pressie.
well. i did a lil shopping on my part. heh.

honey! lets not be so angst! we'll control each other man.

sighs. i guess its just plain karma. was studying barefooted and i just kept swinging my feet against the nice carpeted floor. and guess what. a staple bullet got stuck and it just formed a neat cut. ouch. so pain. booboo. shall learn my lesson. who ask mi to bitch so much with my ever so ready meanie mouth.

this song just popped up in my head while i was trying to mug. heh. and its really nice...

i promise

Well I'll always be there for you
When you need someone well I'll be that one
Well I'll do all my best to protect you
When the tears get me all right
Well I'll be the one that's by your side

Chorus:
Well I'll be there when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise) I promise I will

When you're sick I'll take care of you
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Well I'll be there to make you strong
And to lean on
When this world has turned so cold
Well I'll be the one that's there to hold

Chorus:
Well I'll be there when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise) I promise I will

And I'll love you more everyday
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you
There for you

Chorus:
Well I'll be there when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise) I promise I will

what a week...

2009-04-07T09:49:00.009+08:00

finally went to test out my swimming abilities ytd. was supposed to be solo. but i was glad my perks came along. gave her quite abit of scares . heh. its really funny how much faster i can swim when i struggle to get to the side of the pool as compared to when i am swimming laps. well. i seriously have this phobia that i'll drown! oh mans and i cant tread water for the 3 whole bloody minutes! *sighs* shall see how it goes tml! *cross my pudgy fingers*
went ntuc-ing with perks after all that swim and lunchie. and this is what i got. haha.
hoegardens for mi and my parents! haha. well. have been wanting to get it for quite some time for them. *aha. i meant me* sweet treat.

coupled with soft and sweet marshmallows! how wonderful! haha.

ahahaha.

ps. i am secretly in love with my mini anne! *oops*

pps.the heels of my palms are bruised from pumping mini anne too much ouch. pain.

ppps.my mum n sis were quite fasinated and yet disgusted by my mini anne. haha. well. i am just greatly entertained. haha. and quite enjoyed the class.

haha. one of my wonderful piece of work on some sleephead's arm? haha.

my 1st visit to island creamery after SOO SOOO SOOO long! with chiam! and gosh. how gluttony we can get at times. i am such a dessert fanatic! forever.

yummy mudpie! so oreo-y.

warm apple crumple with melted burnt caramel icecream! *faints* the icecream is to die for.

my all time fav! fresh banana icecream!

what a happy family of desserts. heh.

been up to my neck. well. not entirely with studies. which i ought to be really ashamed of. so many things happening all around me. its really weighing me down. i literally either stomp or drag my feet whenever i make my home on days which i rather not remember. of course there are happy times too. but i think its just these few days. kinda stand more on the gloomy side. like worrying over things which are so not within my control and theres really nothinig much i can do about it. so exasperating. i know myself. practically a control freak. like i want to be in control of my own stuff. but sometimes. i just cant. and not being able to do so just drives me nutters.

circumstances which makes things difficult are forever threatening to fall on us. from all sides in fact. confrontations need not always lead to the end of the issues. but sometimes. i think confrontation makes it worse. and makes it more bitter than ever.

sometimes. i really really wish i can just fly up to the clouds and just stay there. haha. the clouds look so comfortable! and fluffy! but its all so disturbing when u discover that they are actually just water droplets! which will fall onto earth when they cant take it anymore!

hope that someone can just come along and save me from all these miseries.... give me a black knight.* chuckles* i know princess pocahontas is too black for a white knight. haha.

the little things....

ps. i wana share my darling boonee's joy! haha. congrats! heh.
pps. i am so ultra happy for my ments! haha.

its a wonderful wonderful day!

2009-04-03T12:14:00.007+08:00

after a full 4 days packed schedule of classes and trainigs and tuitions, all i asked for is ONE day. and guess hat? my EVER SO ADORABLE MUM pestered me up at 730am to go marketing with her! omg! i omost flipped. booboo! but its ok. i am such a NICE daughter. muahaha.

a WONDERFUL masterpiece of xiaoying during ELC lec using eraser dust! haha. we were all cross eyed from lectures!

my new fav! foxy exotic mints. yummy! and they are so pretty too. like popping colourful crystals into your mouth.*grins*

i shall admit. i finished them all but left one for xy. *sheepish*

the loot!

our cf lecture! its by far the only lec which i stayed awake for the entire 2 days of lec! guess why!

he is the reason! SATURDAY NIGHT FEVER lecturer! haha. his hair and outfit just keeps us going man. helpless me have to constantly burst out in laughing fits. *awww*

one of my morning breakfast with mum. DINOSAUR PAO! its damn BIG! and quite yummy too. kinda MEATY HUH. imagine the whole pao stuffed with meat. haha.

anyways, its really annoying how impossible it is to study effectively after full day lectures.minimal work is done. :(

but oh well. today and the weekend shall be once again be on turbo!

so happy! going island creamery! to eat and study! yummy yummy yummy! i want my banana+caramel icecream. haven been there for SO SO long!

*bliss*

*ps. think i am having a lil cough. but its just my throat. heh. so icecream works just FINE!

stuck with each other...

2009-03-31T00:02:00.004+08:00

boonee came my house to mug and heh. this is what we gals do when we are bored... jelly playing.. so colourful and pretty.
i like looking at it...and i like 'mugging' with my darling too. heh.

went for a impromptu dinner with joshie chiam n ments at ikea! yummy yummy meatballs with jam. heh. and well. alot more stuff... glad that it materialised. if not i would be having some funny funny dinner by myself.

and ohohho! watched CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC! well. what can i say? its a bimbo show. great show to laugh and relax and go awwww over. heh. pretty much enjoyed it after a whole day of training and walking and getting bits of rain. hehe.

went bedok with the intention of catching the exciting races but it rained. so shitty lo. am i jinxed or what? haha. but the movie made it all better. *sheepish*
but omg! all that talk about the results is so !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ms yaya is feeling happy! hehe.

HARPER'S ISLAND look good! but i dun dare to watch! but its looks really really good....hmmm. should i or should i not....

while they are STUCK WITH EACH OTHER, i am stuck with this song in my head...

one lil two lil three lil PIGLETS!

2009-03-22T20:18:00.011+08:00

Finally started our revision lecture and haha. so coincidental. erxingui in the same class too. ahaa.so funny. and here we are fiddling around in class, with me doodling on her thighs. hehe.

some snackies which helped us through!
cookies & cream HELLO PANDA

AWWW. spot the difference!

mini piglets! alongside with bargaining!

so entertained by bthe new discovery! PERCY PIGLETS! heh! more 'eater-friendly'. one by one, u can just pop the piglets into ur mouth. yummy!

hmmm. the few of us think this resembles someone! hahaha. ter ong! hahaha.the resemblance is uncanny!

well, while the few of us are enjoying the booze, someone seem to be trying to act refined! i wonder who. heh. hoegarden is nice!

finally had the bdae dinner with ments and it was quite fun! been quite long since we had such a peaceful and relaxing time together. without the company of our paddles too. haha.

took this shaky shot after trg on wed evening. mesmerising.

the gummy bears battlion!

so cute rite! ali and me sneakily took this while queue-ing at sdba after one particular trg. heh.

saw a rainbow ytd! so nice! it was rather random. like just spotted it while looking out of the train cabin. forgt to take pic. aiya. haha.

i never knew that the whole day lecture could tire us out so thoroughly. i practically concussed after reaching home. booboo. nido get geared up man.

game theories!

2009-03-19T14:07:00.002+08:00

its econs week! and i think i am going to get really really sick of it. haha. but come to think of it, i think i barely started? only managed to do half of it when the lecture starts on sat! omg! slaughter me like a piggy. yes. a piggy. well. at least i can be presentablely presented as a decenty plate of pork chop. haha.

ments actually wants to shoot me in the head. haha. and i really think i deserve it. for all the things that i have done. why is it that it can feel so wrong and yet i do nothing to rectify it. sighs. there is really a difference between what i have to do and what i can do. it is logical and understandable to always do the right things but why is it that when it comes to the time to execute it, you cant do it? maybe beneath my red heart, i have a heart of steel. haha.

i have no idea why. was feeling abit weird in the tummy and to nap. woke up feeling worse and when my mum asked why i look so pale. i feel like crying. think the emotions are threatening to flow out of my head. i love my mummy.

i think i am starting to have multiple homes. kallang. sim. home. macs. haha

i am getting delusional! yay!

all i know, is everythinig is not as it's sold.
but the more i grow, the less i know.
and i have lived so many lives,
though i'm not old.
and the more i see, the less i grow.
the fewer the seeds the more i sow.

end of prelims!

2009-03-16T13:12:00.002+08:00

was mugging ytd with joshie and chiam and saw this quote which i think is very sad.

''astronauts cant cry cause there aint gravity to let their tears flow...'

i think its like so bitteR!

omG! and i need to congratulate ms booneeeeee!~gongxi gongxi! heh.

prelims finally over and wow. i am so NOT demoralised man. haha. shall start my own mugging camp! and i shall be the 1st prisoner of war. shall go and catch a few more and imprison them! muahahah! maybe ms hong can be one of them!

my mum is so funny! like these days, she brings the smile in my face! from the silly and crappy stuff she says. omg. i dun think anyone will believe that they came ut from her mouth. i love my crappy and sensible mummy!

revision lectures gona start this week and gosh. i gona miss the entire weekend of trg! sighs. i tried my best. need to be prepared for the lectures. its really uber horrible to go into a lecture for revision and you have no inkling what the lecturer is talking about. i dun wana be further demoralised! so gona burn all my books and notes and drinK! hee.

when so many people are breaking down, how can i join them? so all the more i need to be strong! its really tempting. haha. but NO!

and i cant fight the tears that aint coming, theres a moment of truth in your eyes..

could u look me in the eye & tell me that u're happy now?

2009-03-13T11:20:00.003+08:00

this is what i have been up to everyday. haha. such good friends with my bookies and kopi. and seriously i have to self entertain in order to be sane.
law!prelims on monday and i am nowhere near half done. so dead. i was so amazed by my bro haha. one person carrying the washing machine. well. i tried. but think the height issue made it difficult for me.

the original product seem too big for me to handle. stupid boy was mocking me about gymmin so much and yet cant carry off the stunt.

i have no idea why but ytd's trg rendered me wasted. cant really eat or walk properly. my legs seem to have a life of their own. concussed immediately after bathing and its horrible to wake up with bolts of cramps. =s

hate this kind of useless vulnerable feeling. argh.

saturday is drawing near! yay!

got alot of new songs to blast for my mugging session! yay!

sometimes, your brain just cant function on its own and you'll have all sorts of weird thoughts getting in. but i am just glad that i let myself be pulled back to reality.

mugging fanatics

2009-03-11T12:09:00.006+08:00

hee. so these are snapshots of how our mugging sessions look like!
sneaky shots when lazy people are taking their breaks. so far! i haven been caught in the act! hee.

venue: ms su*way
time: after eugene's tekan sessions
effect:as can be seen below

immediate concusssion for some
and crankinesss+sudden bursts of energy for some

well, there are times when you realise your stuff are missing... heee. and they become accessories for my study partners...

oh my! caught in the act again. but this time, we took candids!

all 3 concussed! and i am left to have my fun! muahaha!

wow. this looks serious! pretty fierce is fierce no more! oops
this is ms how's form of stress relief. well. one of the many! huge packets of cotton candy! yummmy-licious! oh well. i din get to even take a bite. booboo!

aiya! forgt to take snapshots of my mugging session with boonnnnneeee darling. heee. but well. its imprinted in my head! so much catching up in the midst of mugging.

3 prelims down. 1 more! my 'FAV' law! haha. gona squeeze everything into my tiny goldfish brain.

just finished watching PS I LOVE YOU again and it never fails to bring my tear glands into action.shall think of more shows to watch again to reward myself. hee.

i think i am learning to take trainings as part of my life. no trainings seem like a great idea but when it really happens, i think the whole bunch of us will feel really lost. like lost. its really amazing how the body mechanism works. the more we train. we bigger we get. HAHA. surprisingly ironic.

going to meet sihui ed and bimbo!!!!! this sat! so exciting! i mean its been so long since we last met. if someone pangseh us again. i willl not talk to her. HAHAHA. *hinthint*

progress....

2009-03-03T09:21:00.002+08:00

poof! so far, went ahead with 2 prelims papers already. and wow! what a beep. i actually left the hall after 1 hour without attempting much. total blank. haha. i wonder what i was thinking. well. it served as a good warning i guess. GAMBATEI!

i have no idea why but these days, i cant seem to get my energy level up at all. like constantly tired? is it a virus in the air? HAHA. maybe i just caught the LAZY BUG!

ments went viety land. 1 week. seem so long. but oh wells. hope hes ok over there. heee. if its me think i'll die of loneliness.

sometimes, i just wish i have a shoulder *like chiam's* to lean on. heee. i like her shoulder! damn nice to put my round head.

sometimes, the floodgate just opens and things are simply beyond ur control. much as u want to give it a steer and change its direction. you cant.

i really wonder what he is up to all these days. like is he really doing what he is supposed to do or is he hiding stuff from us? seriously, we had enough of his PLEASANT surprises. and usu they are quite bad. i cross my fingers hard and hope that what we feel is not what we think it is. we trust him. and it is just not right to betray our trust. habits are hard to break. but you have already broken some bad bad ones. so what is this one? just another one to go.
i know you love me. but we want actions which can let us feel the love. if you deem hurting us,keeping things from us as love, i really duno what u are anymore.

all the young dudes!

2009-02-22T15:52:00.013+08:00

was walking to kallang by myself this morning when i thought these fallen flowers look pretty pretty! so sweet coloured. and as usual, bored me decided to take this scene down.
trainings trainings trainings. i am pretty used to it all. and even though the few of us grumble, we still make it down. like. haha. its just the 'heart' part. cant let it go. just have to go down and dip our paddles in. and i am glad i have the few of them alongside with me.it makes things less tough.
jiayou ba. *smiles*

cf class! heee. niao bought this yummy xiao man tou with such a cute packaging that i totally cant resist it at all!dummty dummty.
my own vday pressie for myself. heee. the BUNNY!
i need them to help me get through my long mugging sessions.....
croccy and kitty! heee. i feel like i own a zoo!
this is not drawn by me! its all xiaoying's work! look at all the weird colours! oops.
well. i drew this. heee.
study session with perks, wee and glenn turned out this way, ahahha, i wonder why. *grins*
my kitchen muggin session with hippo!
this was taken on our way to training after class. pretty! i took it!
me and perks definitely have our ways of making sure we rowed properly. heee, if the pic cant be seen while rowing, it means we didnt row properly!

anyway, went to kang fei's 21st birthday party ytd! and finally met up with the girlies and ahems of cux the guys. heee. it was a pretty short session. but what matters is we finally met up! gosh. i wonder how long! i have no idea why. but i just felt that everybody looked so different already. maybe its cux i haven seen them for damn long.

finally had the long awaited red jelly longan! heee. quite fun hanging out late and keeping my eyes open for bapoks. but aiya! only saw one. heee. should do this more often man!

we got a surprise party tonight! and i am so going to see what is HER reaction man. she better not cry! i dun want to cry alongside! but i think i will. bleah.

prelims coming! and i am like alil of schedule for my study plan liao! shikes! nido cover up! mugmugmug! and i am so into old sch biscuits now. hah.constantly have an old school lunch box full of those biscuitys. sinful! but to hell with it! at least its not unhealthy? heee.

punch me if i slack man! buddies! just remind each other to mug hard! especially my perks ah! i know u are reading! mugmugmug!

bunny!

2009-02-12T14:15:00.002+08:00

i am so happy for now.. just gave in to temptation and bought myself the cute bunny. like really. waste money again. but dun care! maybe less bbt to make up for it. heee.

and i am kinda irritated by the sounds that my body make whenever i make any movement. its like 'crack crack crack' all the time. omg. i am barely 21!

started my revision finally! like finally! well. its not alot. but i am glad that i started.need to get going . like keep up the momentum. which i am afraid i lack. ohohoho.
and the things thats like waiting for ms how to do seem to be piling up all the time! but no worries! one by one i shall tackle it all!

i think my finances is going to hit rock bottom again this month! uh oh! seem like the new year didnt help mi much. dumdumdum. cross my fingers man!

i don't know what's right and what's real anymore.
i don't know how i'm meant to feel anymore.
and when do you think it'll all become clear.
cux i'm being taken over by the fear.

catching up!

2009-02-10T11:18:00.002+08:00

finally managed to have the time to meet my dearies sihui bimbo n kelly. but the venue is damn far! jurong point! i cant believe i am so noble as to travel all the way to jp to meet them for lunch. but i am glad i did that. heee. we went for pizza hut and heee. arcade! its been a while since i last played. basketball is fun! but the ride was like almost 1 hour. booboo!

woohooo! i th9ink i am going out for movie with my mummy! heeee. LOVE MATTERS! hmmm. take note. its not me who wana watch! i am just being a nice daughter. heee. i shall happily go get my big packet of honey stars and munch in the theatre. that shall be my lunch. well. its so healthily unhealthy.oops.

my mum and me got lotsa karma! 1st. my hp spilit into 5/6 pieces and haha. it has become a 'touch screen' phone now! then today, my mum's army hp dropped into the toilet bowl! omg! like daughter like mummy man!

heee. i shall fly off in my lala lands and prepare to go movie-ing! been so long!

perfectionist...

2009-02-04T08:56:00.002+08:00

i realise i practice perfectionism. perhaps i expect too much of people. but it just creeps out of me subconsciously. i mean. i may be critical. but. i try to give leeways too.

woke up at 630am today and went jogging with my parents in a mini park. they are so cute! actually i have never seen my dad & mum run before. i mean jog. haha. my mum was like so enthu! and i was like trying to pace her and slow her down. true enough. she stopped after awhile. haha. but oh wells. at least they went for brisk walk? heee. i cant help smiling to myself. they look so adorable jogging! and we went to the mini 'fitness corner' in the park. they have those funny cycling machine. those copy gym kind of machines and even standing board jump board! haha. and the 3 of us were just greatly amused by the sbj.
breakie comes next! and i would say its a great start of the day. though it meant sleeping lesser.
hmmm.somehow, i feel that this is a one off affair. but i am still glad they started.

sometimes we can be held back by alot of circumstances. but funny enough. this is the way things work.

i really should work on my MA assignment fast. ahah. booboo!

whirlpool....

2009-02-03T10:49:00.002+08:00

sometimes it does take more than simple common sense to figure stuff. things aint as simple as it may seem but thinking too much bout it aint good either. things can be really as simple as it seem. it aint easy but ...

coach is so cute! but i am quite paiseh that we cant give him whatever he wants and expects of us despite wanting to do so. i am powerless alone. some things i cant openly point out. but when i do, it is when i cant take it anymore. much as it will offend alot of people. but. if no one point out anything, wont the problem just be there? and remain unsolved? i might not be always right. but i am not always wrong?
its is like time after time, i see sir get angry in his way. its obvious. one can tell. even if he doesnt outrightly scold us. you can tell. he is pretty upset and disappointed. there is only so much a coach is entitled to do. and he is trying hard. i never see it till now.

oh my darlings! i want to meet u all! and i am so sorry that i cant make it for the astons lunch that day. unexpected things do happen.

and bim n sh!and booonnneee! i think i am like virtual friends to you guys already! muackies muackies!

prelims dates are all out! and oh my love! its end of the month! so exciting huh!gambatei everybody!

and to my perks! i love you! and i am so happy for u! heeee. we both know what it is!its amazing how much i can rely on u!

this song is good. *hearts* it.

BROKEN STRINGS

unbeautiful

2009-01-23T09:23:00.002+08:00

i think i am lacking in drive and motivation to study. This is bad. Gosh. How funny. I can constantly nag at people to study but i am not doing it well enough myself. Shall buck up.

Nowadays,my days are just filled with school,home,tuitions,mugging,ma hmwk,trainings...same cycle over and over again.but well,i guess it has become a routine for me.so used to it that one day,if one of it goes missing,i will be pretty much lost.

My bishan tutee gal is quite an enjoyment for me actually.like i can teach her and enjoy her bimbo company at e same time.haha.and shes quite funny.lend me her little black dress novels and cds.

There are alot of stuff which are better off left untouched.so here i am,ignoring them and carrying on like nothing's wrong.

I wana fly away!haha.and look at everything with a diff light!

i am a big big girl!

2009-01-22T14:48:00.002+08:00

this is a really really nice song which i am like addicted to now..20mins more before my lecture starts and i am nua-ing away here....youtubing....

what a great way to spend a lazy afternoon...well. not exactly the whole day.. but i do treasure my 45mins of free time...

monday blues to the ult

2009-01-19T14:51:00.003+08:00

dragged myself all the way from home to sch *lucky dad fetched* to study.i dun think i did alot. but i guess it beats studying at home, where the bed is constantly beckoning to me. have been trying to study every night but i never fail to doze off in bed. its like a perfect lullaby. with magic spells and wicca.

was studying and thinking about a whole shit load of things. what have i done to myself? the more time i spend alone sitting down in the library. thinking about unsolved tutorials and stuff, the more emo i feel. and i thought watching the wx's bdae video would help a tad. since its so comical. but oh my. i guess it failed me. for once, i feel like weeping when i view such hilarious stuff. its just that whiff of sadness. and self melacholy. everyone seem to be wallowing in self pity. like all of us are trying to compete who deserves the most pity and sympathy. its like that lethal disease that plagues all of us. let me try to psycho myself back to the sunny track. think about all the wonderful stuff that's out there! count my blessings! i have such a wonderful mummy and daddy! and so many friends. what more can i ask for?

every single step i try to pull myself up from the darkness and it is taking so much effort. and i try to pull people along with me too. but i am only one person. cant help much even if i want to.

haven been having much of peaceful sleep the past few days. i duno for whatever reason. but i just keep waking up during the wee hours of the night. and it has been like that for the past few days. i am really tired and i really want to sleep well man. teh sunny side up of all these fitful sleep seem to be bringing qute abit of unrest and shock for my mum.like when i woke up in the middle of the night, i walked over to my parents room and just nice she spotted me standing there at the door in white. haha. and she really jumped. aiya. quite funny. but haha. i really should stop that. my eye bags are getting BIGGER & BIGGER by the day...

i shall pull away! wun take any backwash any more! just hang in there!

doing good?

2009-01-16T10:03:00.001+08:00

things change.people change.times change.makes me wonder what remains the same.do we have to constantly cope with it or just let it be?maybe i am too concerned and anxious about certain stuff.but it is all for the interest of ...cant say i am selfish.think only for myself right?after all,i am not going to benefit much from it right?in fact,i think i am going to cause myself some trouble and miseries from it.it is weird.but i cant seem to pull myself away.be it responsibility or sick attractions.

I remember how i used to bitch about them changing after being handed the authority and power.i was such a major bitch back then.now i think i am getting back all the karma.full force.smack in the face.feeling it.its only now that i fully understand why they did what they did.circumstances often force people to do things that they dun want or dun like to do.and they know they must do it.even if it means giving ur certain stuff.its hard to get understanding from all.but eventually,as long as my conscience and heart is clear,i believe no one can argue about it.and i can just rest my mind.meeting expectations is hard.but not meeting expections seem to be much harder on yourself.

No matter what we do,its human nature not to be contented.so.yap.

what a year.

2009-01-09T09:11:00.002+08:00

turmoils began even before the year started proper.its a pity that unsolved problems have to be carried forward.really want this to be a fresh year where everything starts nicely.as usual,things dont always turn out the way you want it to be.
I may appear to be nonchalant,but sometimes,i do wonder about stuff.how things can escalate to such states.i duno why.but i dun understand why we are such complicated creatures.why do we read so much into things?is there a need to?maybe there is.but i wish i am immune to them all.why is it that things dun appear to be the same as what we see?simple is the way i want it to be.sick and tired of all the politics.i might not be directly involved.but i do play a part and the effects are widespread.it definitely can be felt.by anyone.everyone.
Some things are meant to be kept in the dark.but human nature just make us divulge it all.appearing to be doing nothing doesnt mean nothing is done.

Agm's finally over.some good things eventually have to come to an end.after getting used to having xy,lisa,lp,joce with us for the past 1.5yrs,it kinda feels weird when we dun row tgt.bt i support their decisions.will miss them definitely and all the times we shared.its such times that will always be remembered and treasured.humans are always like that.we wun treasure what we have till we lose it.
Right now,i seriously want us to stay tgt.work tgt.towards a common goal.i have faith in all of us.my stand is clear.
I need to clear my mind.start afresh.learn how to control my emotions and temper.think objectively and not let any emotion affect my decisions.
I know things can be easily said.doing it is another matter.it aint easy.but it has to be done.
On the surface,things look perfectly normal and peaceful,but its always such peace that leads to a violent storm.

Nothing is impossible!hang in there!go away all the bad air!i want to see my rainbow after my storm.

now that the festive season has come to an end....

2008-12-30T12:00:00.005+08:00

goodbye to 2008 and hellos to 2009!

it has been a fast year. so much had happened and we have to just cope with everything. i definitely matured and sadly, i have learnt to be much more cynical and critical each passing year. it might or might not be a bad thing but the meaniness is rubbing onto me. haha. somehow, my mouth never stops making comments. that shall be the first change i try to make in this new year.

all the independence i built up over the year is going to fail me. but i shall build it up all over again! and make it more steady and tough! i do not want to rely on my parents.given their current state, i believe they have enough on their shoulders. booboo!

my mum's asking me. 'are you going to quit in your last yr?' and obviously thats what she ask of me. but i haven thought about that. when i first made that comment, i thought i wouldnt last that long. but now, i think there might just be that chance that things may change. ultimately, it all boils down to my results. results will speak volumes. i seriously want to do well. and i want to make my own choice based on what i want. not let results decide my choice. so much hidden agendas and internal struggles.

human relations are hard to maintain. much less foster and forge new ones. everything happens for a reason. and its up to individuals to decide if they choose to accept it or not.

work has ended and now i will have much more time to study and prepare for the upcoming prelims and exams. all the dates are out!
-ELC 22 MAY
-ME 14 MAY
-CF 21 MAY
-MA 26 MAY

i am so going to catch up on what i missed man! i think i need some time to get used to going home after class and not heading out to work. hee. maybe i will try to be a more fillial daughter by doing some chores. i mean since i am staying at home. but i am such a lazy bum. we'll see how long i can sustain this nice-iness i am feeling in me. bleahs.

what awaits us in 09 set me thinking about alot of stuff. it is going to be a tough fight ahead!
i missed out alot of time with my friends. and i am so going to makeup for all that. bit by bit.
esp my secondary sch mates. sighs. i really really do miss u all!

happy lil gal will strive to be a happier,serious and efficient lil gal!

to all my darlings! may 2009 be a good year for all of us!

somewhere only we know...

2008-12-25T19:16:00.002+08:00

the chapter ended with a graceful note*or so i hope*. hope i didnt make a wrong decision. its one of the times when making a decision is so hard. but sometimes, it might be for the good of all.

suddenly, i feel like watching THE LAKE HOUSE again.

so many things happening that we are just lost in them.

happy little yawen!

2008-12-14T22:04:00.002+08:00

spent such a wonderful weekend with my darlings!
lets see.

saturday even though we had to go back to school to attend johnny's lecture, it was ok! especially since we only attended 2/3 of the lecture. heee. we never skip anything k! just that he covered the remaining 1/3 of the lec in another class that we went. hee.essentially, we attended EVERYTHING! its the after lec programme thats EXCITING! delong SUDDENLY suggested KTV! omg. and that certainly caught xy's FULL attention. that's like one of her raw nerves. so the few of us - abel mi joshua delong xiaoying just happily cabbed down to PARTYWORLD! where the fun began! 4 straight hours of singing. hee. not to forget the roleplaying and acting we added in as entertainment. after all the hoohaas, we still got the energy to dinner and poof! met up with ms hong,ments and weiyin for a small chitchat session!so fun! and we played soem silly 3 friends game. i was the winner! woots!HELLOS HELLOS HELLOS! i love HELLOS man.
i am binging! alot! pepperlunch coffeebean ICECREAM! help help! i think the weighing scale's gonna crash under my weight.

sunday! dimsum with shua dext abel jac ang! had to wake up damn early for this man. but its very nice! esp the prawn dumpling! omg! then we went bowling, bishi bashi-ing, shooting and pool! so so fun! and i have to say its extremely tiring man. this was all done within the time span of 3hours? cause we had to rush off to 2nd half of the day = twilight!
omg! twilight have handsome and pretty vampires! its like the highlight of the show? haha. i still cant stand bloody scenes.but we managed it! so funny. i bet edrea and shua were greatly entertained by me. especially when the movie started off with SPIDER MONKEY! i men its damn funny! esp when we can so totally relate the term to people we know. ahah.i think for that scene i laughed till my SWOLLEN ABS ached. as usual, the food intake is HIGH. tako pachi and carls junior? oh my. guilty guilty. so looking forward to tue's self training man. must work at my fats.

work tml! dread it. but aiya. its like my last few working days there already.

its just weird not having any trainings. like something is missing. and ultimately, when the usual 'trainers' dun train, we end up meeting up to play since we know we are the available souls. heee.

to ms boonee, pls do do do do have a safe trip man! and enjoy it!

and aiya. cant spend my free wkend with zx. suay. he went on a trip again. haha. then the bad thing is trg gonna resume nxt wkend! argh. happy ORD zx!

back from penang

2008-12-09T11:53:00.002+08:00

after a torturous 14hours bus ride, we are finally back in SINGAPORE! i have never felt so happy to see my bed before. and my home sweet home!

let me sidetrack while. finally met up with boonee! and it was only a short lunch before i leave for penang. but it nice. to have even that 1 hour to talk and eat together. and sweet her as usual gt me a huge box of throat soothers which was pretty useful. hee. muacky!

back to penang. it was an intense trip. with all the emotional whirlpools. and together, we won our very first gold medal of the year! i am so so proud of the boys and gals. even though i wasnt rowing, on the shore, we can sense and feel the desire to win. that boat really want to win.
our gals did well too! got our 1st silver medal! the feeling was so strong when we came up from the race that all of us just hugged each other and cried. its such times that make us feel whole again as a team. for the 1st time, the boat was eerily quiet after a race set. everyone's just holding their breath.
guys did their best i am sure, even though they lost by just that bit. i have trust and faith in them that they can do it! june race awaits us. we'll eat all of them k! boat by boat. race by race.
my heart just went out to all of them when i saw them came out from the boat. it really pains me. but there's just so much we can do to help them feel better. we can really see how much they feel for the team.

ps. so happy for mr delong and joshua for getting their 1st medal! u guys deserve it!
pps. congrats to my perks. u did us proud. virgin overseas cox. well done!
ppps.coach was so happy when he saw us race with such valor! i mean its one of the few times when we can really see a SMILE on his face.

the trip bonded us. or so i feel. it really do. and i have learnt to appreciate other people's efforts more.

food! penang is just so foody-licious!
hagen dias. baskin robins. icecreams! omg! secret receipes. auntie anne. grilled chicken.CHOCO BANANA pockys!hawker food! chicken wings, fried kway tiaos,oyster egg.....and so much more! i am such a glutton!

the last nite was so much fun! like all of us just went crazy! after the gift exchange in ter room, we just gathered in dext's roomfor alcohol and fun! mi brandon joshua and yongfa were like playing psp and losers had to drink cups! omg! i think i just K.O after downing 2.5 cups of mixes at one go. stupid. den i just went off to watch the rest play some card game. on & off. they were so funny la. kissing each other. awww. haha. after that drinking part, it got worse! drawing time! lipsticks and eyeliners and mascaras just came into the picture and no faces were spared. booboo! it just went on all the way till 6am? when its like almost time for breakfast, ahahha. and we have to say goodbye to penang!

i bet all of them will look forward to the next penang trip. i do. and i seriously hope i'll still be there for the next one.

back in singapore. back to reality. school again!
ps. i am going to see doc for my feet finally!

moooo!!!!!!!!

2008-12-02T10:29:00.002+08:00

hypocritical? i wonder who. its like the pot calling the kettle black. how fake am i when i haven even been trying to suck up to u? HAH. now that's really hilarious!at least i am honest. for all you know, all those who are surrounding you are your worse enemies ever.

i think i need to pack up whatever i have been thinking about and put my words into action. i have been lagging behind for far too long. whirlpools everywhere. everyone has their own problems. but somehow, only few can solve them.

knowing everything sometimes can be such a torture. ignorance is indeed bliss. but too much of it makes u a fool.

i love all of u darlings. its just a matter of whether u welcome it with open arms.i can always lead u to the river to have a drink, but if you choose not to, there is basically nothing much i can do.
sometimes, rather than keeping everything in, you need to tell us. communicate. if not we'll never know what is going on. that is why i am never a cold war fanatic!

was pretty pissed at work ytd. like they know i am leaving soon. so they decided to FULLY UTILISE me. before i can finsh one task,. they started piling me up with more. and they even CALLED me to rush me for it. well, eventually they are the ones who atre going to get it. cause when i leave, if i have unfinished work, its going to be redistributed to them. so i wish them luck!

so emo these few days, i wonder why. think my eyes are having floods. miss zx. and the easy ways he can try to cheer me up. sometimes, i think he suck in cheering people up. but sometimes i think it works just fine for me. i am troublesome la. hee.

feel like my life only revolved around db. i miss my secondary sch frens!jc frens! booboo!

PUNKED

2008-12-02T01:42:00.005+08:00

idiot delong weiyin joshua and abel! me and perks kana punked by them! argh! but it was a good one. kind of brightened up my lousy monday. the foursome really ought to be smacked man. i shall not release explicit details here. booboo! initially i thought i can finally reach home before 11pm. ended up reaching home at only almost 1am? haha.

went for freddy's 21st bdae dinner at NYDC! yummy! omg! we had our appetisers-baked delights, followed by our main course-mudpies! i think we tried more than 5 diff flavours of mudpies and perks' all time fav THAT BONY CAKE. so satisfied. heee.

everyone seem to be smiling except COMMANDO BOY. i wonder why.... heee.

sentosa ytd was damn fun! well, even though chiam and mi had to be the advanced party and 'entertain' coach, haha. i have to say the 'pingpong' trg was funny. all the ball games. captain's ball! i think us gals screamed till we were damn shagged. guys were playing soccer and coach really knows how to play beach volleyball man. i thought he was just bluffing. heee.

i am so glad i went to sentosa. intially was thinking i shouldnt go because of my legs. hee. but i guess the sea water made it all better?oops. ter definitely has a fetish for sadistic forfeits. haha. but its his 'twisted' thinkings that contributed to much of the fun. all the nipple licking(ter & dex),ear licking(chiam commando) and saliva wiping(weiyin long) etc really created quite abit of commotion and laughter for us! not to forget ali & stan's entertaining episode of cpr. ahah.

coach was damn sweet lo. he went to cut guava,mini carrots,cherry tomatos and baby cucumber for us lo. even brought thousand island sauce and the sour plum powder. so thoughtful.heehee.

well, after all that fun, we have to train hard and prepare ourselves mentally for the upcoming penang pesta!no matter what, coach HINTED so obviously to us that he wants something back man. penang penang! so looking forward to it!

zx is still in taiwan. booboo! but we still got to talk! heee.

row row row your boat...

2008-11-30T01:42:00.003+08:00

hee. had training from 12pm to 5pm! best man. like what i told xy, we had a rowing buffet today. haha. lucky i managed to drink a cup of milo before going trg. if not, think i'll be like so starved by the end of it all.

the few of us just went on a gorging session after trg man. had our lunch at 5.30p, at ms foodcourt. and soon after, we proceeded to coffee club for dinner at 7-ish? haha. and i am so pleased to say that i tried all the foodie that we ordered. absolutely yummy-licious! hightlights being the MUDPIE,CHOC MOUSSE & CHOC MILKSHAKE WITH CHOC ICECREAM! imagine my high-ess man. heee.

going sentosa for the team outing tml! and i am so going to get myself a proper tan man
bringing my cam to get pretty shots!and i am so surprised that coachis joining us! wow! like hes so 'HAPPENING'!

my heel holes are starting to heal! i think i have to give credits to longlong. his med was like so PAINFUL! but it works. so no pain no gain i guess.

sleepless nights...

2008-11-28T23:02:00.002+08:00

have been getting only 3+hours of sleep on average each day. i have no idea why i cant sleep well. its either physical pain or emotional turmoils. whenever i close my eyes, a fresh bolt of tears just springs up. gosh. i need to get over this phase. i am sure i am not the only one. all the probs just pops out and we just seem to be at a loss. it seem that whatever we do, its wrong? maybe not thinking and just doing it helps and makes things easier.

trg ytd was very good. even though it was rather impromtu. interval training! heee. shiok. but the blue paint on track is hard to get off man. had to resort to scrubbing using some brush to remove it all. well done gals! i can see all of us trying hard to complete what was required. and it really pains me when i see them in pain. like ouch. cramps. pukes. how bad can it be? jiayou lo. we'll help each other through. even a pat on the back or just a simple 'jiayou' when running helps.
*huggsssssssssss*

zx is in taiwan! 10days leh. sighs. miss him alil. but oh wells. 10days.

my hole is getting special treatment today! and goodness! i have to give it !@#$%^&*(!
hope the result is worth the pain!

boonnnnnneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. hope after i come back from penang,we can meet man. and bimmm.ed.sh....soon!we'll meet!

2008-11-27T01:19:00.002+08:00

was watching the regatta vids over and over again. it is just painful. i mean it just sank into me. i dun want everyone of us to start blaming themselves. but i just want to make sure we win it back. everything that we have lost. even if its race by race we eat everything back.

i never thought i'll be hit by recession. haha. kana retrenched. goodness. dun think the idea will sink into my head. up till now i am still in shock. and i am like thinking whatever shit can happen. hang in there man. i wun die. but just need an emergency contingency plan. think think.

i was looking at my rotten heel. and there is a gapping hole. i am thinking how long does it takes for flesh to grow back? i guess theres no chance of me having my flesh grow back by penang. argh. i am quite scared it does not grow back. even though i appear nonchalant.

it just brought back memories. ended up in tears. i cant count how many times. lost track of it. control man. i am sure he wants us to smile and not cry for him.

am blogging right now. its a rainy late night. perfect weather for sleep. and yet i cant sleep. i seriously duno what to do.

post regatta

2008-11-25T01:14:00.004+08:00

regatta is finally over. so many months of training all for these 2 days. we din win anything. but i think all of us won something within. it was the time to let everyone experience the hunger for winning. i am sure all the juniors and seniors alike now can feel it. but will we work towards it to quench our thirst? or will we just think about it and not take any action? well, i believe we have 6 months ahead of us to show and prove it. who means it and who doesnt. it is gonna be damn obvious.

ladies we did all we could. i am not sure about EVERY SINGLE LADY. but i shall give everyone the benefit of the doubt and assume we all put in our all. only managed to go down for the opens races. the 2nd day was intense. the feeling that you get when u know the team relies on that one single race to proceed or wither the afternoon away. it just felt terrible when i see my fellow gals not being able to proceed and row for the day. i really really badly want to win it for them. the gals on shore. so that they can get their chance to row. i mean the few of us really tried our best and pulled. but still. things wun always happen the way you want it to. we learn from the races. and i seriously hope we can take in the experience. we learnt it the hard way. but we are all gona learn it by hard man.somehow, tears just fought its way down the cheeks of so many of our ladies and teammates. it shows how much they care. how much they want it. its just painful. guys felt the pain too. its really heart wrenching when u see ur teammates so sad. and we cant even do anything to alleviate it.

2 days of intense emotions and action. and its over so quickly. june race seem to be our next battle city.

on a lighter note, this year's regatta has got exciting events! one boat capsized! and a dragonhead fell off! and bumping accident of rowers! wow!

ps. hope you are getting on well. we'll remember you. for the short happiness you brought into our lives.

sweeties !

2008-11-20T22:47:00.003+08:00

suddenly me and perks feel so emo. heee. den we all started putting up pictures of each other. hee. i love the four of us man!
my lovely jac KISSING me!

radiant perks huh! just shes like 20! heee.

greedy xiaoying and me!

we rock man! its been so long since we enjoyed each others' company SO MUCH! all the talking*i did not say bitching man* and the laughter. heee. esp me and xy. we laughed till we got cramps in the ABS man.

and double joy was bim sihui and ed fetched me from home and we went KAP for breakie! heee. sweeeeeeeet. i miss the KAP days. we laughed. we joked. but we FORGOT to take candids! alamak. me and sihui just realised. i had my yummy mcgriddles again! hee. can never get enough of it.

i am such a happy bitch today man. food frens zx family. what else can i ask for?

ps. i am so paiseh for waking zx up so early today. heee. duno why. but my fingers just went to dial his no when i was trying to locate my hp. hee.

screwed up my MA test but hee. i just forgot everything! niao also. haha. so surprising.

contract law was ok. at least way better than MA. boos! but somehow. my happiness today way surpass the tests. heee.

painful...

2008-11-19T14:51:00.012+08:00

tada! after so many mornings of omg at my hair, i finally made a rash decision and booked an appointment for my hair. hee.
yes. bangs again. hee. but i give it at most 1.5months. and the bangs will be gone.

tueday's rowing! hee. so cham. me,weiyin,niao and lp2 all gt infections. and see what weiyin,edrea and me did to my infected heel. heee.

mummified. or the new gladiator heels? haha.

zx after gettiing his toothies out. pain. stitches. eww. abit swollen . but its recovering...went to visit him and due to the busy weekend, i guess ytd's gona be the only time we meet again. boos!

perks and me bored in school. well, last friday we were all waiting for the CF lec to start. booboo! niao was the fateful photographer. hee.

perks was just TRYING to act studious man.

i have no idea what we were doing. but its niao's way of passing time. candids.

wed nite's make up class. i realised that glenn has a BIG face! see!

i think this was Friday's econs class. heeee. EDREA *HEARTS* YAWEN ALOT ALOT

LONG TIME. of course. heee.

i wonder who it was written by. tsktsk.

booboos! i had SWENSONS lunch today! colleague's treat. heehee. he just got hitched tats why. and i had a MEGA BURGER! yummy! double bacon double ham egg and thick beef patty. complete with fries and salad. yummy!

REGATTA!

2008-11-17T13:35:00.002+08:00

new heights for KARMA! just when my left toe is recovering from the attack of bacteria, my right back hell area embarked on an infection journey yet again! and bugger! it kept me up half the night ytd. like pain!
stupid incident. was lugging the HEAVY small boat on sat when my foot just fell in the small drain and got the 2 stupid scratches. and when i went for lunch just now, one kind lady whom i duno actually stopped to ask mi about my foot. *well, it was LEAKING juices* so nice rite. ahah.

ohohoho! spent the saturday morning with ms hong at SDBA on that fateful rainy morning. initially i wanted to go for double rowing to make up for my lack of water mileage. but its like so suay! not only did it rain-cant go for my long run, the boat was FULL. like FULL to the brim. and it was the debut for the guys man!
ended up MAMBO-ING with perks in the hidden corner outside the Nteam rm. HAHA. and how we tried to scare niao when she came but apparently we failed terribly. booboo! and its so nice to see those old familar faces man. sebast! agnes,ang,DT,...... haha. presenting to u! SIM ALUMNI team!

3 tests up! and omg! i am quite scared. REGATTA! i mean its like a few days away! oh my! like we trained so hard for it and now its coming! like really. it seem so far away at that point of time.i want to at least get my chance to go down this year. din get to row at all last year. *excluding the csc race* i know my limits. so yea. i dun mind drumming for the team but i wana row! poor ments. i know he wun get a chance to row. but if he does. its really a BONUS! like hes helping the team cox at the expense of his chance.

i hope Lisa gets her well deserved chance to row too. and not be pulled into coxing. no matter what, its her last year.
all the best man. jitters all the way.

sunday's trg was a killer! we practically spent half the day at kallang. since 745am. we were there. all the way till 230pm. HAHA. row row row. good sets. i mean i can feel the morale on the boat. getting better. and its nice to have banana rowing behind. heee.
and all the nteam ppl rejoining the team for trg. it feels really good. i mean seeing so many people, everyone will feel the spirit.

after that, went CHINATOWN with zx and his family. heee. ate so much! satay, guo tie, dessert!!!......... wanted to get tangyuan! but i cant find the shop. booboo! but i sure enjoyed myself ytd. booboo!
zx gg for his wisdom tooth osp today. so scary. painpain.

muacky!

2008-11-12T10:38:00.003+08:00

a wonderful dinner with ments after making the effort to go down to the OMG place fraught with ahems to make the coach booking. heee. i am still scared of that place. heee.
yummyyummy! and we are heading back for another treat this sat for ed's and josh's bdae celebrations!

as a not so strong swimmer, ytd a bunch of us went swimming in prep for penang! hee. tong,sharon,weiyin,ed,jac and me! i omost freaked out when we went to the 1.5m pool. like my head is barely seen. HAHA. jac was the BEST. 1st time i see koala bear ini water! hahahah. bt oh well, in the end, everyone can swim! but i duno how to tread water. ahha. despite weiyin's patient teachings. haha.

the highlight was lunch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kfc and sarpino's pizza! omg! heavenly pizza man! imagine! pizza topped with ham,pineapple CHEESE, CRISPY BACON STripes omg! *faint*

training ytd ended with a fruity note. hee. bananas grapes watermelon. and yea. usual burst. my new shoe is light! haha. finally tested it out!

perks perks perks. let be worms in each other's stomach man. haha. creative juices flowing for whatever i have in mind for next yr! flow flow flow! things are going to look up man!

end of masters!

2008-11-10T11:09:00.003+08:00

great monday!hee. wnet to carrefour with my colleagues after a yummy pastamania lunch to buy all these! the ducky POPPETS looks damn cute and yummy! mint choc balls. heee. then got the khong guan mint choc cookies for perks and tongtong. haha. and of cux. i must have sweets. muahaha. now i am a happy little gal.

this is our usual CF lec. heee. perks bought m&s shortbread for us. scotish cookies. yummy! but look at what niao did to the wrapper - DUCKDUCK SUCKS,LAMB MEH,BITCH HOW, JORQ. heee. all our initials. well. jac wasnt there. so we helped her place her name. hee.

the 'oh so famous' duckduck! i was justtrying to help it take a nice passport photo. heee.

i am so so happy to announce that the MASTER SERIES is finally OVER! and regatta is up next!
perks lost her virgin cox to masters and she did well! hee. such a pity that she din get to be on the headline of her fav hydro tribe.awwww. haha.

poor perks lost pretty much alota sleep over the coxing. but so glad that its all well and fine.
since masters is all over, i shall not think abt it anymore. but apparently coach mentioned something about seniors dropping. guess he was refering to me. gotta try harder i guess.

after masters, the few of us went to watch MADAGASCAR 2! so funny! its lame but well. all for in the name of fun! love the penguins! lions! giraffe! zebra and hippo! ahahha. well. it basicaly is everything. oops. and the funny thing was the 9 of us drew lots to get our seats! and i am so glad that i din sit beside someone. heee. gt freddy and delong.perks was lucky too! well. except jac?
hahahah

finally saw tongtong bf! hes quite funny. and tongtong i believe has violent tendancy? muahah. but they make such a cute couple! yesyes. nice!

teststeststeststests coming up! and its like all squashed in a week? kill me.ahha

watched 'quantum of solace' with zx too! i find it quite ok. but it doesnt have the WOW factor. just nice. hee. well. the highlight of that day was actually PEPPERLUNCH! went to meet him after my trg and went to BISHAN FOODCOURT for early dinner. guess what? zx found a USED PLASTER in his pepperlunch! OMG! thats bloody turnoff man. silly me still think it was like egg. bleah. ewwwww. mr self proclaimed nice guy then went to change his pepper rice. but i guess all appetite was lost? well. who wouldnt? its really damn gross.

ohhohoho! and i gt my new running shoes! its like really time to replace my lost acics.sighs. but i am quite happy. haven gt a chance to try it yet. tml's tg gona RUN! so shall test it then. zx gt a matching pair. haha. bt he gt the guy's one. so cute hor. it wasnt intentional.

i have got so much stuff to do and yet so many movies to watch!
1)SEX DRIVE

2)THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL
ps. keenu reeves is acting s an alien! omg!

3)BEDTIME STORIES

4)YES MAN!

5)*****ANGUS THONGS AND PERFECT SNOGGING
ps. haha. looks like such a bimbo show which i think me and perks and jac will definitely like it.

till then. i shall just wait for their release! which aint so soon...

hurrays!

2008-11-05T08:35:00.003+08:00

what can be worst than a series of unfortunate events early in the morning? HAH. but well. i am still going to be optimistic about today. hopefully i get my stuff done like efficiently.

woke up to a painful toe. its really irritating. i have no idea why. but just dragged myself out of bed after just a mere 4 hours of sleep. was up last night doing my law essay. i enjoy it actually. definitely more than the bloody accountinig essay which took me zeon years to do. have yet to complete the law essay but i think i am gonna take lunch to work it out.

what sucks more than having overdue melted candy gummy fruitella in ur bag? sighs. i got that. and a lone grape fruitella was found melted in my bag's front pocket. and my oh so friendly hp was found to be stained with sticky residues from the gummy. i was like OH CRAP. not me again. maybe i shouldnt leave emergency candies around everywhere. BUT i clean forgotten about it. booboo!

sir came trg again ytd. and even though the trg programme wasnt as shiong as what we always do, it felt tiring. i wonder why. maybe the fatigue is sinkiing into all of us. poor ali. have to suffer backache. imiagine that. 6 hours of rowing consecutively in a day! little wonder. and her overslept punishment? i really dun understand that. 3 hours worth of ahems. come on. its utterly pointless? punishment i believe she deserves it. but it need not be so rigid right? like erm...

so now, instead of having land trgs on thurs, they are having sea rowing. and oh GREAT. i cant go for yet another rowing session. when i think i seriously need it. sighs. no choice. so it has been decided that the few of us schoolers will self train in school. think we'll all be good friends with missy argometer!

and so here i am after working for 3 hours non stop. i decided to give myself a very deserved 15mins rest from work! hohoho! my gastrics is starting to go away bit by bit. think its because the workload was weighing on me. thats why it pained. ouch. i ate my breakfast! so its definitely nt the diet problem. hmm. on second thought, maybe the thick thick kopi i drank this morning played a SMALL part.

anyway, ytd went MACS breakie with clemmy,josh and delong. yummy yummy mcgriddles became my brunch?haha. and i even added maple syrup to my burger! oh my. now i feel like eating it again. so funny. jac and ah lum joined us after that and silly jac was tricked by our cold storage trick. muahaha. mugging was fun cause of all the opportunities to be meanie! booboo!
lp2 joined us too. for that short while before we were to go for training. i managed to finish my essay. so i conclude ytd's session wasnt ineffective. as for mr josh and clemmy. i hope they really mugged. given the fact that they have exams coming up...

running away

2008-11-03T21:36:00.002+08:00

my toe is still weird. i find myself so brave when i put the painful qing cao oil on my toe. painful it is. even more than clemmy's acid. haha. but somehow its still moist. hmm. i wonder why. i am going to give it a few more days. sighs. and the worse thing is i always somehow manage to kick or brush my wound against somewhere like tables or chairs. which more often than not leaves me swearing.

i am starting to think all men are jerks man. so many weird happenings. i cross my fingers. man men man men. dun ask me why. i dun get it too.maybe the extra piece of meat made their brain malfunction.oops.
pardon my blunt-ness. but some guys really know how to get the best of both worlds. COME on. this is not playboy land. its really pea-size brain at work. poof!

i am stressed outa my wits. i dun understand what all the bloody variances is about. omg! bugger.

i am super in need of some theralpy. hope my toe really really heals fast.

to my darl boon. hang in there! tests and all are tough! but just be strong!

to my perks. mug! stay away from the comp and ur hp. i mean it.

to my jac. be assertive!

to clem. dun u dare give up!

to my zx. thanks for being here for me.

to myself. stop procrastinating!

bad tootie

2008-10-31T17:44:00.002+08:00

my 2nd toe is giving me hell man. it has gotten swollen even after me squeezing out the pus. i seriously duno how a small kick can result in this. sighers. karma in full force. its painful. and i am constantly walking in fear. super scared someone come and step on my feet. HAHA.

managerial econs is getting tougher and tougher.like when i flip to the end of my booklet, i see those LABOUR MARKET, MR MC all staring at me. oh my. how i hate them so. but oh wells. i shall battle with them till the end. but then again. i think i might need a txtbk for econs after all. the study guide seem to be rather thin and useless. sighs.

MA & ELC long wordy 2/3 thousand words eaasys due next week! and i haven started. oh my!! shall gorge myself silly at the sakae buffet later. to make up for the pain i suffer for my toe-ty and the kickstart for my essays!

karma filled days

2008-10-29T14:45:00.002+08:00

karma. now i truly understand what is called karma.

sunday. kicked my feet against the gravel steps. resulted in blood stained big and second toe. it still painful today. sighers.

tuesday. my zen stone failed on me. all the songs gone. and i think the stone itself got infected. i cant even put any songs in now. much less listen to it.

today. sexually harrassed by a MRT MAN. slap him man. omg. so tramuatising. imagine a DIRTY man in shorts and teeshirt pressing against u. yea. thats it man. and the mrt was so packed that i can barely move. eww. yikes.

i wonder what is going to happen next man.

finally went for a swim ytd! with my darlinig perks. heee. took a few pointers from perks. i really cant figure out why i am so slow. like she could swim double of what i did. haha. maybe i need more practise. and it was really fun. haha. like me forcing her to go to the medium pool with me. and the water only reaching her chest height? ahah. we were like the 1st customer of pepper lunch toO! yummy yummy! jap curry with cheese.

trg at night was shiok too. mr coach turned up! wow. and it was damn funny how mean he can be to tongtong. and everyone was just cheering each other on. good!

omg! i am so going to fall asleep during work. thanks to the yummy department lunch. FOC. heee. some indo place fried chicken and rie and hot hot chilli. now i am like induced to sleep.zzzz..

random random random... why do people get so depressed? forced into it by circumstances or is it just nature? can they be overcome? or should they be extinguished?

happy deepavali!

2008-10-27T10:16:00.011+08:00

wonderful! i woke up to meet binu at 7+am in the morning for a jog and BREAKFAST! heee. at least now i wun feel so guilty binging. haha.

went for LONG JOHN breakfast! our 1st try and it was quite good. except that we were all so full and cdnt clear our plates. guess its teh toast. dun really like it. but my turkey bacon was yummy! and the hash brown!
i am just enjoying myself after that run. heee. and some stuff... heee.

biru with her so contented face. heee.

goody goody!

well. we were bored while waiting for the store to OPEN for business!

banana's mocha and perks and me had mango smoothie! it had been so long since we hung out tgt. if i hadnt gota rush, i wld have stayed longer. bleah.

after trg ytd, we just went for lunch with the usual khaki. hee.i was such a glutton. couldnt finish my own noodles but after like 1 hour, i went for chendol ,sarsi *so old school drink*and chocolate and banana MUFFINS. omg. tell me how i am going to ever work out enough to cover all that foodie. only perks can truly understand my glutton-iness. cux shes one of the few.. haha.

friday night! was supposed to go for sushi with oni zx. but oh my! my mum and sis joined in. haha. so funny!

so ICHIBAN-ing it is. and being a nice daughter, i paid. ahah.

sis with teh nerdy specs and my zx. haha.

what a spread! soft shell crab. chawamushi.unagi and egg and salmon bowl! muahaha.

mum's fav! unagi with garlic rice. she was so full that she cld barely move! ahah.

fried chicken! with LOADS of mayo!

my all time fav! slamon and tuna sushi! yummy yummy!

went to meet silin,ug,jay,wx,ruian,karl,binu,shu and zh for qi's early bdae celebration. heee. so fun! had pizza for dinner and its so exciting how we always collaborate with qi's sis and her mum and zh. well, it was a classic moment when we saw qi's face. HAHA. i had to applaud that!

so sad that the next time we meet will be like at least 6 weeks later? and its a AT LEAST. not to mention that wx,ruihan,karl will all be overseas on projects and stuff during x'mas! oh my!

gotta start mugging for the day! i must! oh my. so hard trying to motivate and psycho myself. go go go!

if i were a boy...

2008-10-24T17:20:00.008+08:00

heee. met up with ter and edrea for lunch today! as usual! my fav luncH! burger king!heee. and i just happened to take this shot... somewhere, somehow...
so matching right...and can u see the colour contrast? one elbow is so fair in comparision..tsktsk.

niao's cookie monster? heee. and i took this during boring ME lec today. manfred was like boring us out with PARTICIPATION AND CONSTRAINTS?

this is my elmo! cutie pie!

ohoho. this is niao's song list. like she's so going to download this song called lust by manfred and bimbo by edrea? HAHA.

CONTRACT LAW CLASS! stupid me stayed up to do MA tutorial on wed and ended up dozing off for all my lec on thurs. even with all these aids. imagine that!

wow! niao's my idol! she seem so focused. well well. dun be decieved! she was just acting after doodling with my DURLEX!

see what she did! DURLEX became DUREX! ohoho!

niao dun kill me! i shall confess! she forced me to do it. ahem. yes. she FORCED ME.

i seriously hope she dun ever chance upon my blog. heee.

i am counting down to end of work! after the omg trg ytd, i think i deserve yet another feast. so ICHIBAN it shall be! with my ICHIBAN khaki aka zx! heee. so happy. and i am so hungry right now.

this song is like playiing on repeat for me. so nice! beyonce is wow!

headache-y day

2008-10-22T16:05:00.009+08:00

well well, after ytd's trg, i felt pretty good today. ahha. it was a real workout. after all the steps, i din really wana see any more steps in front of me ever again. HAHA. so i decided to reward myself today with this! so happy!
mocha ice blend with whipped cream! yummy-licious! so satisified after drinking. heee.

well, me and my colleagues got bored of waiting. so i just snapped here and there. bleah.

so cute right. i thought they looked pretty much like condoms. oops. well, at least i am not the only one who thought so.

sweet. cant help but took a few more. now i thought they look like santitary pads. HAHA.

was like walking around with my colleagues and i saw watches. aiyoyo! i am still thinking about them... should i? should i? eeyer!

managed to survived monday blues! thanks to my BUENO-ING! haha.

and finally got to meet zx. a feast to celebrate?

boo! kenny rogers! yummy yummy! fatty.

the pig and chicken in a nest. muahahah!

now i have got 2 assignments and 2 tutorials tugging at my sleeve. oh my! ROAR!

PS. i wana watch TROPIC THUNDER! & BLINDNESS. & Night in Rodanthe & Burn after reading. HAHAH. such a long list. i wonder if i'll get the time to watch them all. *think think*

grumpy bear

2008-10-19T16:18:00.009+08:00

well well,. i guess the grumpy bear actually shows how i am feeling. HAHA. he look so sad and cute.

sea trainings these days are dreadful for me. i dont even feel like going at all. especially when i duno if i'll even get to hold me paddle and dip it into the water. DRAGGED myself to trgs. or i'll keep damn bloddy quiet once i step into sdba.
SIZE DOES MATTER! i am holding a GIGANTIC paddle aka ruddle and yet i am feeling worse than before. i would rather hold me pink paddle. and flirt with it non stop man. these are times when i would prefer it SMALL.

battling with inner conflicts isnt fun at all. how long have i tried? maybe 1+month?bits are me are already eaten away by the weariness of it all. what is the point of me hanging in strong there when everything seem not to be worth it at all? will there be a point when my rebellious side kicks in and take over me totally? will there than be people saying i am selfish and irresponsible? haha. i dont doubt that at all. like they ever care. why am i doing all these despite getting all the black faces from EVERYWHERE? isnt my family,zx,friends more impt than IT? sighs. sometimes it hard to do things you THOUGHT you LIKED. have been losing so much sleep over this. the hidden tears shed. only my fellow buddies will know. and now the no of fellow buddies is officially set at 3. HAHA.

Friday's ME class. and xy's weekly contribution of titbits. this week its choc! yummy!

now you see it

now you dont! disgusting perks stuffed all the wrappers into the mentos stick. I DIDNT HELP AT ALL. hee.

my hot pink hippo back in action! after practising the MIA act for so long.

met up with silin mich and shu for dinner on fri! and its SOUP SPOON at raffles place. hee. BOSTON CLAM CHOWDER is yummy! all of us were so tired that we left for home befre 9pm. sighs. why is life so tiring these days. so taxing. but its such short and substantial meet ups that made our tiring days seem alil better!

ps. i miss zx. sighs. hes away fro the wkend. and i seriously feel like we din talk much last week. credits to ms how. yes. tats me.

boredom...

2008-10-15T15:56:00.008+08:00

this is office life... what is work without them? haha. i ams eriously surviving on them. and omg! my tummy is getting orunder and rounder by the day.
*hearts* the cheese hello panda. the strawberry, the choc. and oh well. bugger. EVERYTHING!

went KTV with niao and ug! weird combi it is. but surprisingly, we can all blend well! i am pleasantly surprised. was kinda worried initially. but guess my worries were unfounded. haha. i realise niao is DEFINITELY NOT SHY AT ALL! hah.
2 strangers come topgether to be singing khakis!presenting niao and ug!

the cheap $10 club. ahha. this is the view from my room window.

ug and me. haha. vain vain ug started wearing contacts.

happy niao and me. haha.

my 1st time at timbre! look at all the drinks but i din dare to drink much. my stomach is at risk. hee. like the ambience and the music! good!

ps. i am going to be the 1st woman who is going to die from boredom at work. the work is simply too monotonous. ROARRRRRRRR! *EARTHQUAKES*

pps. i finally uploaded my F1 pictures ytd! *applaudes* and pictures of my dad battling the crabs and their tragic fate. hee. *yummy* the thought them makes me drool. oops.

pps. this is such a nice and happy song. i am so addicted.

LOVEBUG

Talking:

Hey Ming,uh, I thought there were going to be chicks at this party

Yeah but they're bringing PIZZA they're also gonna have diet coke...

Well dude, guys guys, they'll be here

Hey Guys

Hey, Hey Man

So Huh..Did you bring me a...

Hey, uh Ming, Joe's not a girl, and I thought you...

Nick:

Called her for the first time yesterday(OMG)

Finally found the missing part of me

Felt so close, but you were far away

Left me without anything to say

Joe:(chorus):

Now I'm speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless,

I never thought that I'd catch this LOVE BUG,again

Hopeless, head over heels, In the moment,

I'd never thought that I'd get hit by this LOVE BUG, again

Talking:

Dude, I don't know

I'm Eating

...diabetes...

(mumbling)

No WAY, John Taylor!!!

NO WAY!!!

(mumbling)(again)

Unbelievable

Nick:

I can't get your smile out of my mind

Joe:

(i can't get you out of my mind)

I think I bought your eyes all the time

Your beautiful, but you don't even try

Joe:

(you don't even, don't even try)

Modesty is just so hard to find

Joe:

(chorus)

Now I'm speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless,

I never thought that I'd catch this LOVE BUG,again

Hopeless, head over heels, In the moment,

I'd never thought that I'd get hit by this LOVE BUG, again

Nick:

Kissed her for the first time yesterday

Everything I wished that it would be

Suddenly, I forgot how to speak

Hopeless, Breathless, Baby can't you..see

Joe:

NOW I'M!!!!!!!!

Picking my nose on our bus

Kevin,Joe,Nick:

(chorus)

Now I'm speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless,

I never thought that I'd catch this LOVE BUG,again

Now I'm hopeless, head over heels, In the moment,

I'd never thought that I'd get hit by this LOVE BUG, again!!

ohhhhoh LOVE BUG, AGAIN!

Talking:

(clapping)

Great Job

Everybody thank you

Ok, Thank for the Pizza

I'll see you next year,MAN

GET OFF THAT CAKE!!

Hey, Don't forget to turn the generator off

I dropped my PENCIL

(door closes)

Bye, see you guys

snapshots of yawen's life

2008-10-08T15:54:00.009+08:00

tada! had lunch with wenxin today! so happy. it came as a pleasant surprise when we just decided to have lunch. hee. and even though we just had a quick lunch at ms foodcourt, it felt good. especially i haven seen her since zeon years ago. haha. well. maybe just a month or two? but it seen like so long. she bought me this purple carebear! so coincidental. i almost bought one of the carebears from school with perks. but bleah. lucky i didnt. thanks! love it!

sweet.

thanks to mr delong, we had these companions while perks, me and freddy were mugging ytd. think i can only see my pink pencilcase,purple calc,orange correction tape,organisor in the background...

went to watch HOUSE BUNNY with perks and jac ytd. and the show is damn funny! well. i wun deny that its a bimbo show. but its like a good laugh after so long. i bet perks and jac wun wana sit near me next time we go movie-ing. haha. esp after hearing my resounding laughter?hohoho! like the MANHOLE and the heart in the head part. haha. absolutely classic.

the food and shopping we pampered ourselves with totally perked us up. hee. not to mention the sinful lard we gained. oops.

i wana watch this show! my richard gere! hes too old for me. but hes simply irresistably charming. oops.

some of the stuff that helped me stay alive.. yoghurt biscuits! so cute and yummy at the same time...

hmm. this ISNT out USUAL behavior during lectures. it really ISNT. haha. that was my piggy mooncake. and thats NOT my hand.i totally forgt what lecture we were in.

perk's blue and my pink cases. complete with her victory. yikes. oops. i DONT see any PORKY lying around. we HAVEN been pigging out in lect. haha.

ohoho. my CF lecturer. hes so well rounded. oops. but hes good. like seriously.

another snack that helped me and xy survived our thursdays. MA & ELC. torture!

i am a superwoman!

2008-10-03T17:28:00.002+08:00

omg! i din update for almost a week! amazing!
but i was simply too held up with alota stuff. my office is really FULLY UTILISING me. ohoho!

hightlight of last week was F1! thanks to MR EDWYN CHEW, i got tickets to go watch! and we were seated directly in front of the pit stop and starting line etc! omg! it was so exciting!went on saturday and sunday. coolio! even though it was really tiring to rush watch the races after trainings, but it was all worth it! the noise from all the LITTLE cars sent adrenaline rushes through my head. hee. never knew i have this thing for all the little cars. but i was so busy hopping around that my camera was in mr chew's hands all the time. heee. so many big hoo haas in this race. well. i was secretly hoping there were more crashes. oops.

ps. mr chew INSIST that i thank him specially on my blog. oops. i din tell all of you right?

thanks ed! really glad that i can go!

dreadful monday was so freaking irritating! some audit people are coming to check up on stuff and poor me kana arrow to do all the shit work such as embracing the mighty dust monster in the storage place with open arms. HURRAYS! ended up getting cuts and aches all over. and this FAVOURITE work of mine is to be continued till TODAY! what a great way to end my week!

tuesday was tuition and mugging and trg day!

Wednesday = PUBLIC HOLIDAY = TRAINING DAY! i almost fainted when i heard that. yes. and i am even more surprised to see people thinking the same way as us. = trg on a public holiday. its really a 1st for me. haha. UNFORGETable wed...row row row ur boat, gently down the stream... and i finally get to practise my rowing after 1 week. thought i'll forget how to row if i dun put my padle into the water soon. oops.

had my last tuition with lexi and i am kinda sad. like i tutored her for a year plus. she was so sweet. gave me a dress. awww.

i had nightmares! sighs. of exam coming. omg. its damn stressful. especially the way the lecturers lecture us. they are like spamming us with tutorials. and i am struggling to find time to work all of them out.

i am a mugger! haha. mugger yawen back in action! but well. i think i'll always pale in comparsion when i am beside niao. HAHA.

going to meet boonee to mug later! so happy! dun get me wrong. i am not happy to mug. but to meet boonee. oops.

ps. i am looking forward to HOUSE BUNNY! and KTV! omg! they help me stay alive man!
pps. love you dear! for bearing with me on my schedule.

screw you

2008-09-24T09:59:00.005+08:00

had such a long and hectic week. And guess what. Just after my brush with SGH, I wen to visit my mr doc again. Sighs. Stupid throat. I din even touch choc okay! My huge box of ferrero rocher is still hidden at some corner of my house. I am going to suffer from withdrawal syndromes soon! Dalalala.

Went back for sea training on saturday after so long. And the few of us who had sat class in school rushed down. Haha. Imagine the sight. 2 guys in front. 5 girls at the back. But we managed. From clementi all the way to kallang. HAHA. Luckily the girls are all pretty small. Hee.
Had subway with perks,jac,ade 2,clement after training and it was damn fun. All the gossips and karma accumulated. WOW!
After the super late lunch, I went to meet zx’s family for yummy ichiban dinner! Haha. Surprisingly I can still eat.

Sunday was master series. I am proud of our junior gals. Well. At least majority of them. Came ini overall 5th I think. And even though our strong competitors weren’t all there, we did our best. And I believe we can achieve better results. Went home and just blacked out after that for 2 whole hours before I got woken up for dinner.
Ps. BANANA is coming back! Woots!
Pps. No training on Thursday for the girls! Double woots!

Monday. I could feel the beginning of my illness. Haha. And I chose to try to let it heal by itself. Serve me right. Sighs. Dragged myself to work and bought a new shoe bag. To replace my lost one. Miss my old shoe bag. Now I need to get another pair of shoes. Argh. Its quite a sad week. Went to two wakes. And dear jon, hang in there! Be brave!

Met up with bim ed and fang despite the protest from my throat. Went to eat burger king breakfast and GELARE! Woots! So satisfying! And we did a lil bit of shopping together. Muahaha. I didn’t buy anything!well, maybe just a pair of slippers. Hee. But I needed it! And mr chew happily bought 2 pairs. Tsktsk.
Finally went doctor before heading for tuition. Another $30 wasted. Sighs. I could have used it on the pair of black heels I had my eyes on. But oh well. Bugger.
training was fun! Well. But we began with a killer. Haha. Or so it appeared. Ran around np. And mingyang nearly scared me. I thought we gonna run two runs. I’ll faint. The med was making me damn nua and drowsy. We went to np track to play captain’s ball! So fun! Well, though my butter fingers more often than not fail me. Good training. All of us were perspiring like pigs after that.

Ahem.sidetrack. I cant bottle it up. It just seem very stifling. You cant make decisions and expect people to follow what u want unless it is really reasonable and valid. How can you judge that a certain chore is easy and simple when u yourself had tried and failed? Come on. Would you want to do it if it was you? Work so hard and end up not being able to reap your fruits? Its just very selfish of you. And I thought you were an adult. And what rights do you have to judge individuals’ skills? Goodness. That I really have to take my hat off. We know you have great plans. But if you never tell us about it, would we know? You two really deserve each other. I am a bitch. But I dun feel sorry or remorseful about that AT ALL. I dun think anyone deserves that kind of treatment at all. Throwing tantrums aint going to work on me. And I believe you are too old to do so.

dear zx, i really miss hanging out with u. we've been getting so limited times together these days. sighs. i guess that makes us treasure the little time we have together more. support me. i need all the strength to hang in there.

think maybe the med din work that well. seem to feel pretty bad. argh. shall go pump starfruit juice as well. painpain. sobs. suddenly i feel like a little girl all over again. want all the pampering and all. haha.
i dun wan to grow up. when all the responsibilities fall back on me.

call me ANISHA!

2008-09-17T14:00:00.002+08:00

OMG! anitha's fren ask if i am her sister! omg omg!
its either anitha look like a DARK CHINESE or i look like an INDIAN! omg! i shall take it that she look like a dark chinese. I DUN CARE!

on the other hand. i might be ANISHA, anitha's long lost sister. haha. my parents found me and educated me to be a CHINESE! omg! so drama...

am i really that indian? sighs.

I am going to be coloured contacts free now! It has been like 5 months since I last wore normal contacts?and omg! I am so not used to it. Like this morning I was putting it on, I thought I lost it somewhere when it was already in my eye. Haha. But it feels great!

Goodness! Just when I thought I am having a great day, my boss came and gave me a 200+++ page book to PHOTOCOPY PG BY PG AGAIN! Goodness!
Kill me.

Went back to train after so long. And what a sight! The room was so full of life ytd nite! For that moment, I seriously thought I went into the wrong room. so happy! But my arms are pretty sore now. I cant twist to the back. Guess it’s the lack of training.

So sorry about being late ytd. Was supposed to meet perks and jac at 9am in school. But I din reach till 10++am. Bleah. It was one of the few times when I was so late okays. Heee. Rockclimbed! So fun! Was trying to beat timings. But not much time to try out. so sad. Had to rush back to bishan for my tuition. And back to school again for trg. Havoc!

Quite looking forward to the start of school tml. Going to be stuck with xy for the WHOLE DAY! 12.5 hours in school isn’t any joking matter. It is lethal! Hope things aint too stale tml!
Gambatei!

Congrats to our michie! I’m gona miss u next year. Really. so happy for u! it feels so surreal.

i think i lost my new asis running shoe! i think i left it at sdba 2 weeks ago. and to think i only realilsed it ytd! sighs. its my new pair. so sad. i am really sad. that shoe accompanied me through my 1st run.

I realize I need to get a lot of stuff. Shit. Gona get another moonlighting job to sustain my expenditure.

HYNOSIS gt sale! heee. and i am eyeing something in there. 60% off. gooness. and NOVO also gt sale. i am so screwed. I SHALL NOT BUY ANY SHOE!

Ps. AIG pls be safe!

blu jaz & stayover!

2008-09-14T12:47:00.006+08:00

here comes the farewell dinner for our seniors at the BLU JAZ ytd! its pretty fun down there with all the guessing and froggies and drinking glasses games. HAHA. had a good laugh over them! but the advance party stayed there from BRIGHTNESS to DARKNESS! haha.

still uploading the pictures on to facebook and its taking damn long! well. maybe its cause theres alot. heee. no choice. all the ADMISSION PICTURES are in my hands. so to find out who came, its all there!

gona miss all the familiar faces and the times we shared. ups and downs. everything! but i am still glad that all of them are moving on and i wish them luck! muacks!

my darlings! perks and jac and jem in the background trying to sneak a place. HAHA.

some of the newbies!

stayover at michie house on friday nite was FUN! its like finally we are meeting again. heee. i guess this was the stayover with the most hours of accumulated sleep. no choice. all of us are tired. bleah.

even though wx and shushu had to leave us for the night, but we are still glad to have seen each other.

girlies huggies

the only yang energies around

we are just all so in love with the big ball

thanks people for the pressie and the celebration. heee. i love it. and the usual macdonald's breakfast which follows after every stayover was great as usual!

lucky

2008-09-12T09:15:00.002+08:00

well well. my wrath is beyond words now. the irritating bitches asked me to change seats again.and i am going back to the seat beside my former place. BRAVO! the no of times i shifted cant even be counted with one hand. in fact, i have even lost count of them. if i am a free & easy worker then its still not that bad. but i have alot of stuff to lug along. its like a major project everytime i shift. the bitches only need to open their big filthy mouth and i have to shift? goodness. its totally no trouble to them at all. maybe just a little exercise on their mouths? that explains their sizes. now i seriously feel like quitting. like seriously seriously. wa. the fire around me is threatening to burn down the office. i will sleep on my ideas for more nights and see what how it goes.

spent a carefree day yesterday. well. not exactly. but i have been trying to relax myself. getting ready for school. i misplaced my STONE's connecting wire cum charger. so dead! i really have no idea where i last placed it. BOOHOOHOO!am starting to resume my diet slowly. rice is okay for me now! but stay away from me oily! haha. i shall not play around with my stomach. ate chin teng under my mum's supervision and permission ytd! tada! that means i can eat cold stuff now! hurrays!

went to make normal non-colored contacts ytd. shall be normal chinese. but i really like the gray shades. bleah. more thanmy green now. boo! i am so broke now. shall only spend all the necessary money.
think my hormones are playing around with me. my moods are flunctating so much that i dun thinki can even stand it.

i love my mummy! bleah. an open declaration of love!

totally love this song!

Doooo you hear me
talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you,
I promise you I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh

killed by the one i love....food!

2008-09-10T12:51:00.002+08:00

well well, imagine the pain of being killed by ur love. i just experienced it on monday. got food poisoning topped up with gastric flu! bravo! my *puny* stomach cant take so much torture at one go.

the main suspect was the omelette that i so KINDLY helpped my dad with. it really doesnt pay to be kind. i shall NOT ever help him again! it didnt act up until i reach my office. and i starting the puking fiesta at 9am. at 1030am, i realise that things aint that simple anymore. so had to haul a cab to the doctor near my house. the cab driver was like asking me if i am ok. well, other than puking into the big ntuc plastic bag throughout the ride, i guess i am considered fine? haha. the doctor was so kind to help me throw away my puke. i mean i would find it pretty gross. hee. and i am really thankful that nobody at the waiting area complained about watching and hearing me puke through out my 30mins wait. the doctor's verdict was gastric flu. and i feebly made my way home. spent $30 on this redundant visit tho. sighs. wasted money again.

somehow the doc din help at all! after eating the med, i puked everything out without any prompting. its like how can the med take any effect if all i can do is just puke it all out again. this conotinued all the way till 5pm and i seriously cant take it anymore. i cant even drink water! goodness! my mum had to drag me to SGH A&E. sighs. waited there fro damn long. like at least 45mins? and the doc was so young! but she was nice. took my urine samples too! but i was thinking how i could even manage a single drip for them since i was dehydrated for the entire day. she had to poke a needle through me,drip and blood test! omg! i was like tellinig her i am scared! haha. had to cover my eyes with my green cardigan. boohoohoo! ended up doing 2 packets of drips on a wheelchair. i seriously hate the sitting down and wait for it to finish dripping kind of feeling. goodness. it sucks!

it feels good to have family around with u during such times. was so glad that i had my mum,sis and dad to stick around with me. it was a good 4+ hour wait. and they were famished by the time we were' discharged'. the doc nearly wanted to keep me overnight! the medicine they prescribe was so strong that i blacked out in my full gear and watch and stuff. while waiting fr my family to eat their late dinner, i dozed off on my seat. and when i reach home. i dun even remember what happened. but at least it worked! and spared me from all that agony.

i am so so sorry for pangsehing all the people bim asked to meet up for my bdae dinner! i was all prepared to meet u guys but such stuff had to happen. sighs.

all i want is a cuddle and a hug and it would all seem better...

i am much better now. at least i dun puke. but i suppose i cant eat like how i used to be for some time. tried eating rice ytd and it nearly killed me. haha. spent a bad night over it. shall just stick to milo and bits and pieces of bread and porridge...

laggish...

2008-09-07T22:10:00.012+08:00

training today was like a torture for mi. think i got some rampant bug in my tummy. bothered me the entire night. i thought i could exterminate it after a night of bearing. but apparently i am wrong. boo! i think we can all become the iron women soon! well, actually its quite a long way to go. meting zx after trg made it all better. hee. well. i am still a girl despite all that brave front. yummy delivered glutinous chicken rice and milk tea. felt so much better.
just spend therest of the afternoon nua-ing at home with him. bleah.

went decoders cafe with kj,mar,jia,bread,peiai,ug,elain,qiuyun & chewy after training ytd! shag it is. but its the crowd that made it all worthwhile!
hidden in some corner in the balmoral plaza, we creep into decoders cafe!
look at the array of games behind! while waiting fro our food, i was bored and started on candids.

pocahantas and snow white?

sept-bies!

a photo to mark teh end of our session at the decoders!

lots of catching up to do!

breadie chewy!

mousey!

it was already 11+ when we left!how time flies!

my bdae pressie from all of them! pretty little piece!thanks loads! love it!

I wonder when will we get to meet again! so near yet so far!

ps. special mention for dear pingu! she called me from aussie on my bdae! and i gt the nerve to ask who she is! omg! well. cant blame me. the no was weird. so happy that shes fine over there. heee.*wink wink*

dabomb!

2008-09-05T21:47:00.009+08:00

first thing first! i got my results on tuesday! and i passed EVERYTHING!woots! and i shall proudly announce my school days to be thursday, fridays and saturdays! tada! it was so irritating on tuesday. i was still checking for results before i left house for tuition. and the next thing i know, everyone is telling me results is out! well. i was on my way to my tutee's house. how bad can it get?

spent the whole of my birthday with zx. heee. morning surprise,zoo and lastly the singapore flyer! such a pleasant day. but i can barely imagine myself as a tourist. its like after a few hours in the zoo, i am totally shagged out. HAHA.but BEN & JERRY can make wonders! haha.

hello with the otter!

zx and his excellent imitation of the seal?or is it the walrus?

alas! i found someone blacker than me! woots!and this thing was found at the zoo.

fun! and loving! even though there was the rain, but it came at only the right moments. heee.

enjoyed the day!heee.

now i am having so much fun playing with yearbook!

tada! my 1st few attempts! but i cant find a more suitable photo! shall try again when i am free. heee. had a good laugh over this. try it!

ohoho! now i have to go sleep! training tml! LONG day!

cookie jar!

2008-09-02T10:13:00.009+08:00

we got porkys from thai after training! haha. totally love the banana choc porkys! ad the monkey on the packaging is so cute! *hearts*
1 box is never enough,especially when there are people around...

after saturday's training, we went SHOKUDO to celebrate stanley and my birthday! ahah. look t all the spread before us and goodness. after training, we can just wolf everything down with no qualms. so tiring! coach is so KIND to us. adding in all the extra beach training in the midst of the sea training. push ups blurpies push up blurpies on up slopes. kill me! haha.we were all so deadbeat after the trg that we went straight home to rest after the hearty meal.

my pressie form the fellow rowers! addidas watch and pinkish puma shorts!

special thanks to perks and jac who went to scout for them. hee.

sunday!

we must be crazy to have decided to go for nike run after training. haha. the guys got it worse i guess. nike run immediately after training and they din even have time for their breakfast/lunch at like 3++? had to eat snickers bar to get their immediate energy.

for the girls, we had the luxury to go for a quickie lunch after trg and there it began! cam whoring!

finally i look tall!only beside chery small.haha. look at all our matching red shirts!the whole cityhall area was flooded with red wearers.

mi & perks!

more! this time with skinny lisa!

at thestarting line, while the rest were all so SERIOUS *why so serious*, we were cam whoring and fooling around. well, this run is all about fun! ahah.it totally felt like clubbing in the daylight. haha. the dj was like playing all the clubbish songs. *dance dance*

look at the crowd! this is onlly PART of it. SEA OF RED!

well, i seriously dun like the nike run route. it sucked. haha. interesting it is. but all in all, it was meant to be a nike walk i guess. all the tiny congested areas. like stopping at every junction. ahha. but the drinks were great! oops. and the company was fun! fun! fun!

the bunch of us just walked over to maxwell food center for dinner! couldnt really eat but think we drowned our body systems with deliciously cold drinks!

no work today! so happy! like finally i can slack a lil. but training tonight and i haven prepare my tuition stuff! omg! off i go!

going zoo tml! hope it doesnt rain! pretty pretty pls!

packed to the brim!

2008-08-30T09:18:00.003+08:00

i declared myself a free-er womanin the month of september! why? my boss and HR 'schemed' to NOT let work everyday! so i only need to work 3 days per week! woots!well, i think my manager thinks i am damn sad and he din even know how to release the news to me cause i was a lil red-eyed ytd. bleh. but oh well, i am over the moon! hahaa. tears of joy? oops.

i have got so much stuff to do but so little time! but i guess the next week will be spent on moping over results omg!how can they be so cruel. like dangling a rotten carrot in front of us for so long! cant they just release the results and let it be over and done with?

tuesday training was so funny! the girls went through the labour process. well, and our baby = medicine ball! haha. how we huffed and puffed. and laughed and played. haha. well, my tummy din have mould growing from the medicine ball...

went to COMEX to spy! and poof! i got myself a camera! haha. nice red one which i like! wfinally. after moaning about getting a camera for the past 2 com fairs.HAHA. muahaha. zx sponsoring part of it! woots! and special mention to ms perks - gc for accompanying me to go get it. well, i guess shes scared i kana con. haha.

bloody nice colour!

think i wana go drag perks to go swim withme next week. have been procrastinating it for damn freaking long.
but considering training at night, it's only going to be a super tough idea to habour. haha. watch me!

wednesday i am going zoo fooling around with my camera! so happy!

LONG week!

2008-08-28T08:36:00.010+08:00

monday!
i think it was the happiest day of the week so far. goodness. zx came and met me for nydc! yummy yummy cheesy baked rice and mudpie!
DELICIOUS! well, i was basically bursting after eating this! but as the sayinggoes, there is always room for deserts!

irish cream baileys mudpie! *drools*

tada! dear boonee met mi at night to pass me my EARLY birthday pressie! heee. its nice! she knows me best. HAHA.went back home to nurse my swollen feet. sobs.

these days i sleep so early and yet i am forever tired. i really wonder why. sighs.

tuesday!

my colleagues are all gradually back from taipei and my mouth worked out ALL DAY!

once i stepped in the office, my mouth din stop working till like 4pm in the afternoon?a nd that is because i cant take it anymore and i know i will puke during training if i eat any more. HAHA.

sweet treats...

training was good! we ran ALOT! 7km together! we ran from school to JURONG EAST! so happy! like i feel wonderously SLIM after that.heeheee. had to limp abit on my way back. my feet was giving me abit of trouble. boos! and poor jac fell! omg! so scary. and the pavement was so DARK!luckily there wasnt any wounds. good job girls! so proud of u all. especially meitong and xiaoying. i am so happy!

wednesday!

DREAD DREAD DREAD would be what i use to describe the. not only were the sleepy bugs conscientiously at work, the pissy bugs were at work too. my boss was like damn IRRITATING. giving me extra manual work 20mins before knock off? and its really pissing me off to no end. HAHA. but i dun care. just went off at 6pm SHARP. no mercy man.

lunch was quite shiok tho. hee. had some korean set lunch...

my set! kimchi fried rice in omelette with chicken cutlet, oyster sauce veggie,soup and lime juice *sour*

so freaking full that i only ate max max 70% of it all...all of it at a worthy price of $9! HA.

my colleagues' lunches...saba fish,hot pot.. not that bad either...

ended my night with tuition. sighs. my student failed her maths AGAIN! i was so pissed that i nearly wana explode. especially after i went through the paper. its like so EASY! ok. at least shld be able to get a PASS. and i went through everything with her before. ROAR!!!

guess who?

2008-08-25T08:19:00.029+08:00

its a monday! again! ahha. and i am starting it off with a tada! smiles below!
my desk! i have this smile facing me all the time. but it doesnt work its magic on me all the time
though. bleah.

me at my dreadful desk. heeee.

friday!

guess where? mingles at novena square? haha. had a great time with zx tere. it seems like that place is forever playing the old school boyband video. HAHA. but i like the cherry chairs. all bright orange and cute. hee.

our nice ice teas....much more to come..

specially made tomato soup. u can actually taste the real tomato in it...

the swiss cheese sauasge is yummy! and the pasta aint that bad too...

my white wine pasta with clams! yummy!

choc brownie with some berry ice cream! bliss-ed. heee.

butterscotch and 'hocky porky' ice cream! haha. interesting flavours.

mi and zx! oh wells. the wait for food is long..not exactly long. but we need some entertainment other than the repeated videos.....

aftermath! wii stayover! i love wii! its so fun! hmm. if i play EVERYDAY, i am sure i'll be slim by the end of a month. HAHA.

the foursome shaking theirs arses...
oops. i mean hands..

me and jac fooling around...

our living quarters fro the night.... haha..

i expect a wii stayover 2 coming up real soon! *hint hint*

sunday.

went for the 10km bayrun! so funny. started off the run with yupei and her friends. thank gawd i met her. if not think i'll get lost again. was supposed to meet weiyin at the 1km mark. but oh bugger. i just ran off.haha.
it was a good experience. like quite funny looking at people suddenly going off the trail and into the bushes to ease themselves.and the poor army people at the water points taking '100-plus' or water baths...

didnt run with bim in the end. she din turn up. well. haha.

after the run, saw jason and kent! and they saved me from getting lost in the crowd.HAHA. i am so proud of myself that i din get lost and managed to de-chip my championchip.

i finished in 1h09min! woots! i expected it to be much worse.

so happy to cab home with zx and his mate from camp. heee. dalalalala. it was a good day!

met up with them to have lunch and collect our nikeruun race pack before heading off to ade's 21st bdae party. and guess what. we reached clarke quay to see these!

look at the crowd behind us. incredible. we managed to smile initially. but after a while, boredom set in...haha..

we started at this time.

the crowd was like this. we couldnt even see the start of the line, not to mention the booths.

well, we started fooling aound with the retro specs. heee.

dun u tink the specs suit clement to a t? tsktsk. its his generation after all..

bored bored bored!

we are finally seeing some familiar signs.. haha, and the nike people started distributing choc! haha. timeouts and m&ns...

at this time, we can finally see the booths and the counters...i had to tip toe i guess...

this marks the start of the queue.and it twirls round and round...

tada! after 3 hours of waiting, we finally got what we were queueing for...

the race shirt. its nice! red!bright! and each runner has their own unique number..

i like the water bottle. and my mum immediately claimed both of them upon seeing them. HAHA. SO FUNNY!

by the time we rushed down to ade's chalet, it was already almost 8pm. haha. but the food was yummy-licious. and we *hearts* the bbq satay,ham,and garlic bread!

and there were 2 choc cakes to top off the night!

oh ya! the MINT CHOC BARILEYS is a hot favourite! nice nice!heee.

happy 21st ade! it was a great party!

was deadbeat when we went home. i can barely direct the cab driver to my home.

and my week ended with a wonderful fullstop with zx. heee.

poof!

2008-08-21T09:21:00.001+08:00

goody! ytd met edrea and jac after work for MARVELOUS CREAM! i had some exciting combi with vanilla ice cream,tart,apple composte and strawberries! yumyum! while the two of them indulged in chocolatey chocolatey delights with marshmallows and brownies. by the time i reach home, it was like almost 9pm. that little bit of shopping after work is fun! haha. trying out clothes and sunglasses. coolio! imagine if we had a whole day. haha. we'll all drop dead by the end of the day.

anyway,i had enough of my company. apparently, the HR has been super CONSCIENTIOUS in complaining to my department head about me. haha. i wonder what else they do other then engaging in multiple orgies in their own 'semi detached' office. they keep on hurbbing on me using the bloody internet and me LOOKING free to them. HAHA.well, if they are so CONCERNED,then they can jolly well BLOCK the whole company. i have no objections. if they can stand not having internet, so can i. now the boss is asking my supervisor is there is a need for me to be there everyday. i seriously dun mind not going down everyday. it wasnt my very own intention in the first place. but now the work seem to be rolling in. if they choose to cut my work days i'll applause for myself and them. then i shall go do all the stuff that i want to do!

met up with boonee in the morning. i thnk it was a rather unearthly hour for her but shes up! amazing. haha. its quite sad that we cant meet at normal hours due to our clashing schedules. haha. but its the meeting that matters.

going perks house for a stayover tml night and i am SO excited about it. hee. imagine the amount of bitching we can generate. haha.

anyway, i felt like such a bitch ytd nite. was on the train home with perks and there were these 2 CJ guys blocking the exit. then i was like trying to excuse them but oh well, i guess they have no brains. din really bulge. people with a teeny weeny bit of brain would step out of the train and let passengers exit before loading but oh well, they didnt. so bitchy me had to so 'can u just go out first?' in a rather pissed off tone. haha. LUCKY them. i had never been so curt to any passengers before. they deserve it.

well. it is so early in the morning and i am bitching truckloads. gosh. hope i dun get much karma today.
ps. i kinda hate the AHM. depriving us of decent meeting time. gosh.

ali bit of relaxed fun...

2008-08-18T08:19:00.021+08:00

haha. after training ytd was supposed to meet xy for shopping and lunch. but oh well, we kana pangseh again by her. dun really kow what to say about that matter. but sighs. sp went to meet zx instead after trg. and we are so freaking suay. it started raining HEAVILY towards the end of our training. boo! cold. and to think that the the sun was freaking HOT throughout trg.

heeheee. went for SPACE CHIMPS! and there is zx lugging my trg bag for me. so heavy! luckily i lent my paddle to some newbie. space chimps was ncier then i thought. ahha. so cute! the monsters/aliens inside look like mutated care bears. HAHA.

such a giant pace of wheat land....at j8?

tada! the world's biggest piece of cracker!

saturday!

ohoho! choc snow ice with nata de coco! ahha. quite yummy and good when the weather is HOT!poor zx cant eat much cux of his cough. but i am so cruel to eat in front of him right. oops.

such a pretty ice cream motor at toa payoh. ahha. 'new' improvised advertising tactic i guess. but its really pretty. was at tp to collect my bay run goodie bag. ahah.

late dinner with zx at my market. hee. my favourite food when i feel sick in the stomach.centurary egg porridge!

teh crispy fored to fu is nice! especially with its sour sour sauce and the veggies. heee.

lunchtime! look at soomeone *frowning* over what to order. haha.

this is GOOD! bacon wrapped prawn in cheese and sourcream. and potato and tomato and GOLDEN MUSHROOM! omg! can faint!

tada! sashimi and sushi and ......

soft shell crab!

and this was the view beside me.so dangerous! the guys were ike standing on glass while trying to fix something.

i like! this car is damn cute! spotted it at my tuition kid place. saw it a no of times alraedy. and finally i cant stand it and had to get a pic of it.HAHA

stay home time...hee.

friday!

went for dinner with ter,clem,jac and edrea! at CHOMP CHOMP! look at our spread!
after a gruelling day, all these are worth it man.

satays!

char kuay tiao! sinful!

bbq chicken wings!

oyster egg! while i eat the oysters and egg. edrea and jac ate the egg! haha.

the lead of the day!stingray!

was so satisified after eating all those. not to mention sinful! haha. but it was fun going out like that and chilling at coffee place. mayeb we should explore more interesting places! lets try geylang next time! aha. then we can watch alot of live shows. oops.

now i am so guilty! i lose the bracelet zx gave me AGAIn! omg! was walking to work this morning when i realised that. hope its lurking somewhere on my bed. sighs. lucky i still have another one. sighs sighs sighs.

hurrays to weekend!

2008-08-15T13:33:00.013+08:00

guess what! i got free sweeties again. hee. my colleague was giving out sugared swiss roll. yummY!
this made my morning bearable. haha.
especially after i spent 2 hours tackling with EXCEL! omg! it was horrible!

nice scene from the River Terrace at Asian Civilisation Museum. sunset. nice! reminds me of the regatta times. i was just sitting opposite the UOB building. ahah.

was there for some department dinner. haha. for them, its a good networking opportunity. for me, its more of food food and scenery. haha.

they were practising for the Nike Run!omG! i am so sian-ed. tink i'll end up rolling the entire course.

regatta! regatta! regatta!

watch the sky change colour! mesmerised.

ohoho! desert!i took everything to share. ahem. of course they are not all eaten by me!

my dinner. soft shell crab,savoury tarlets,noodles,mango pudding....

i was bored.

tada! this was wat greeted us when we entered the building! ahaha.

i am so looking forward to weekend. the week was torturous.especially the working times. but ytd and today were much better. haha. maybe cux of the gossips.

some big shot from my company was ASKED TO LEAVE ytd! and nobody know why. its like super sudden. the next day hes just GONE! hmm... we wonder what is going on. so we spent today speculating and haha. i have to admit that it makes time flies...

tml gg to meet zx! sighs. our one and only aftn and evening together again. and i am going to drag him to bring me to safra to collect my race pack. heee. cant be helped when he has a 'no direction sense' gf.

colourful pictures!

2008-08-14T13:27:00.023+08:00

haha. these photos were supposed to be up long ago. but oh well. some times we ought to lag a lil. oops.
and the birthday girl *ages ago*

doesnt her waist look wonderfully small?oops.

joel just told me something i find unbelievable. HAHA.

Me and jac showing off our nice desserts! ahah. i am eating ice creama nd she choc cake! ahhaa. mix together = heavenly!

blissed.

botanic garden picnic!

our very own LOVE! haha.

me and silin were trying to save the stranded baby. hahaha.

what a sight! the swan lake. ahha. with only 2 swans in the entire lake. oops.

boonee was supposed to be super man. but oh well. it doesnt look like it i guess.

yummy silin arm!

the 5 beauties!

me and boonee!

well. this looks weird. it is silin's feet! trying to hold the hp upright to take pictures. we had a good laugh over that idea.

attempted shots which managed to have our lovely faces. ahah.

failed shots.

happy shots.

we were blessed with good weather! nice blue sky!

crazy picnic! which turned ut to be a major carbo load. ahaha.

shadows at work!

orchids! oh well. we din pay to go in. heeee.

can u guys see silin in the background? aiyo. shes supposed to be like standing on our hands. ahah.

home sweet home....

karma!

2008-08-13T09:39:00.000+08:00

Omg! I think I got my accumulated karma ytd nght! Was bathing after training and it was only when I was shampoo-ing that I spotted the BIG cockroach!its feelers were longer than its body! So disgusting. And it was perched on top of my showerhead heater. Omg! I was freaked out. dint even finshed bathing. Just rinsed off the foams and just dashed out of the toilet after dressing hastily. Close shave. Was so scared that the cockroach will FLY! It’s the ultimate! Was monitoring its movement closely throughout my stay in the toilet. In the end, just went to mum’s room and bathed. Luckily they never lock the door. If not I am seriously going to just sleep without bathing even though I perspired a lot during training.

Then I had a weird dream also! Gosh. think it must be that cockroach. Catch all the weird dreams for me. With a guy my sis and mum. Its just bloody weird.gosh.

I am aching in my legs now. Haha. From training ytd. Maybe its the steps too. New kind of routine ytd which was pretty funny.2 people are missing at the same time. Ahem. Did they go off together on a honeymoon? Well. Its up for us to guess and them to decide. Ahem.

And i managed to sell both my dresses through qiqi blog shop! I am so happy! So happy little me went to buy another new dress after getting rid of two. HAHA. Bought a new white dress this morning. I am so screwed. Haha.

snap snap snap!

2008-08-12T09:16:00.001+08:00

I am having the hot and cold fits. Actually its more of cold fits. Blurgh. I feel like I am in Iceland most of the time. And my throat is like trying to protest even though I fed it a lot of my dead man sweet. Come on! Spare me the agony! I dun want to go to the doctor! I hate doctors! Slept before 10pm ytd night with the hope of more rest and faster healing rate. Haha.

Ben and jerry are my new best friends now. And they are ‘expensive to keep’ friends. Boo!

I cant stand my curly whirly hair much longer! But I cant find a time when there is no training for 3 consecutive days. Alamak! guess I have to wait all the way till after master series! Sobx.

i wonder when results will come in. my dad asked me today and I was like. Hmm. I duno. So scary!

I am covered with scratches inflicted by myself! So super not used to having nails. Well. It doesn’t look very long to most of the people. But its like quite long for me. So painful. Need to get used to it and stop scratching myself.

Yawen’s theory

There is no such thing as a tummy. Only swollen abs.

Heee. And I am sporting quite impressive swollen abs. woots!

Ps. Work sucked all the energy out of me. I wonder how I am going to survive for my future.

wonderful weekend!

2008-08-11T12:44:00.018+08:00

this marked the beginning of fri morning! the picnic! me and boonee while we were waiting for the latey ppl. haha.
the picnic was fun! full of cam whoring and laughter. and foodie!boonee's cornflakes are yummy.i was so glad that the weather was so good! after a night of rain.phew. heee. shall post pictures of the wonderful picnic after our dear qiqi has uploaded them.

afterwhich, boonee and me had double date! heee. aiyo. such a pity we forgot to take a double date photo tgt. went to shokudo *i waited so long for shokudo* for lunch and even though i was stuffed from the picnic. i still manged to try all of these!

i bought teh yummy unagi rice! its cheap and yummy!

psycho-ed zx to get the burger! mushroon cheese! yummy!

boonee and hr bought this tepanyaki omelette rice....yums.

and the accompanying soup with lotsa ingredients. eheee.

last up! my favourite! caramel banana cerpe with cookies and cream icec cream! *drools*

i wana go agaiN!

tada! at zx's house for our cooking session. *thank gawd his mum was around, if not i think we'll be pretty screwed. haha*

yummy cambell soup! we added EXTRA ingredients inside too.

zx ahrd at work. i am hard at work too. busy taking pictures. oops.

they contributed to the taste.hee.

i cut them! 4 diff types of mushrooms! so mushroomy. hee.

the spagetti in the boil...

zx stir frying...haha. definitely not me!

our expensive cod fish before it was cooked...

tada! complete with lemon juice,onions,butter and some wine. yummy!

great dinner and i am just the accomplice. oops. and the eater!

saturday was national day and the high light was the movie 'money not enough 2'. haha. when zx and my parents met, it was pretty funny. my dad and sis seem so small standing next to zx's bro.

and i was pretty surprised that the movie wasnt censored considering the content. i thouoght the government will have some propaganda stuff. haha. but it was a VERY local film which is pretty much catered to only singaporeans.

sunday's training killed me. we rowed in the rain and now i am pretty sickly. haha. my nose seem to feel tickish all the time. boo! but it was good training as usual. except some parts. xp

and after lunch, by the time i reached home. it was 430pm! and i was supposed to meet my primary sch frens (orange,wanqi,yiling,wenting) at amk at 5pm to go night safari! rush rush rush. haha.

night safari was okay but i guess the company made it fun! especially the cam whoring part.hahaha. cux of my stupid night blindness, i was pretty much trying to see stuff most of the time.

the animals were so peaceful in their santuary. i loved the otters the most! they are so cute!haha. and the african crocodile look alike creature was so scary! eeyer!

and the mangrove swamp bat area drove me crazy. i was so scared of the bats that i was practically hiding behind orange. the bat was so huge! and i am damn scared that they will fly across me.

as compared tothe zoo, night safari seem to have so much lesser animals. ahah. now i am enthu to go ZOO!

and u cant take any pictures in the night safari cux of the darkness. boo!

i shall post up the 'excursion' pictures after its uploaded. heeeheeh

wonderful wonderful weekend!

2008-08-07T14:28:00.001+08:00

Hurray! I am looking forward to a wonderful long weekend! Since tml is my self declared off day. Hee.

fri gona start off with a wonderful picnic followed by a possible double date-lunch. Heee. So exciting right! And I shall try not to burn zx’s kitchen down after lunch. Oops.

Sat will be spent with families. Ahha. So funny. Zx and my family all watching money not enough 2 together! Like a hugh family outing.

Sunday after the always tiring training, I am going to the night safari! Woots! With primary school friends. So cool. Like meeting up again after so long. Haha. After my tramatising experience at the night safari the 1st time round, lets hope I dun get scared by a DARK zoo keeper again. boO!

I shall be pack with loads of pictures!

Ohoho! Somebody buying the colorful dress which I wore once and decided not to ever wear it again! So happy! Can get rid of it and get back 67% of my money. Heeeee. Special thanks to qiqi for helping me with the sale!

picnic!

2008-08-06T14:28:00.002+08:00

It started out bad. Haha. 1st. my strappy heel broke! Luckily its not the heel but just the straps. So I had to DIY and cut away the straps to last me through the day. Its still serviceable for its last swan song.
I shall throw it away the moment I reach home.
Ps. This is the 2nd pair of heels I am throwing away! But I added one to my collection though. Haha.

2nd. My feet had big big blisters thanks to the heels. Gosh. how painful can it get. I thought I was going to die from blisters. HAHA.

3rd.When boonee first asked me to take leave to join them for the picnic, I was like feeling so guilty and all. But now I shall just take it. Since they are not treating me that well after all. Come on la.

‘we want you to be somewhat like the HOD’s PA.’
‘let your work not so boring…’

what a truck load of rubbish. I just told them I taking Friday afternoon. But after thinking, I think I want to take the whole day off after all. And the reason?

‘ I am going back to school to settle some admin stuff.’

But I am not! Haha. I shall be busy enjoying myself out there. Boo!

I think my throat and feverish feeling is pretty much gone. So glad that I am ok.

Look forward to joining the girls for the picnic at the botantical garden on Friday! Now I wonder what I should bring…
And meeting zx after the picnic for lunch and cooking session! Heeehee. Food fight! Oops.

ps. i am quite happy with my student. she improved. from the way she think even though she is not that fantastic yet. but its still an improvement. *grins*

pps. i changed seats in teh office again! and now i am having a TRANSPARENT seat. gosh. i am so sad i cant do the stuff i used to do anymore. no more obvious blogging. playing bejewelled....saddened...

germs!

2008-08-04T08:57:00.032+08:00

after training ytd, was feeling quite tired. it was like only 12+?so just went home immediately after lunch with jac. and i just went to snooze my sunday away. had the going to fall sick feeling all day and night. throat is still weird. argh. i dun wan! think i wana go visit the doc if i dun feel better by tml!

and my mum was watching this '1% possibility' korean show. its damn nice!the lead actor is damn cute! heee.
he's secretly smiling to himself. heeee.

he's jealous!

he's secretly smiling again!
i wana melt on the spot.

met zx for the one and only day on friday. boo! went bugis and had the omelette rice! yummy!

my tomato rice with hamburger patty.

zx's curry rice with chicken. heee. curry is nicer.

and we went to my fav kiddy arcade after dinner. its so fun!

the ping pong mouth machine. we just got to shoot all the ping pong balls into its opening and closing mouth.

hit the crocodile! haha. i like!

catch the flying popcorn *aka ping pong balls*. my favourite game!

shoot the basket. ahha. i literally could lean over the railing and just throw it in. heee.oops.

hit the aliens. heee. din get to play this tho. next time round i guess.

ball throwing again. the dolly is supposed to swell up but she didnt! eeyer! but i used to love it alota as a kid watch the dolly grow fat.

me in doraemon!

i am sitting in the big machine. alil cramped thoogh. heee.

went to celebrate ang's and wr's bdae on sat nite at BREEKS. haha.

never eat pasta there man. mine defintely sucked.

my creamy mushroom pasta which is alil too cold.

jac's fish and chips and spagetti which looks so much nicer.

mr joel's small chicken which he claims to be nice.

next up! chilling session at new york new york. ahha. our bdae boy feeding ah lum dessert. hmm... looks weird. and wrong.

my dessert! i forgt the name. but uts DABOMB on teh menu. haha. choc mudpie i think.

doesnt it just look heavenly? well. it is! choc brownie with some nice pie crust and hot fudge around it. complete with vanila ice cream. what more can we ask for?

my fave page of the menu. heee.

apple flavoured candy floss. yummy.

i wonder where this is. ahha.

girls aloud!

me jac and lp2 just ran out to catch a glimpse of the fireworks from the ndp preview.

bdae gal jac and mi

carl's junior!

2008-08-01T13:41:00.003+08:00

boo! ytd's trg was pathetic i have to say. the no of people present was so astonishing little.hais. but nvm. i am sure it'll get better. and i am bloody weak now. gosh. need to push more! rawr! and now i am starting to worry about my 10km run. haha.

met mr ed for lunch. ahah. and we were supposed to eat at the foodcourt. oh well, i actually brought my own bread for lunch and my intention was to go foodcourt to eat fruits or po piah. but oh well. ended up at carl's junior.

heehe. and i ravished my bread at 1130++..sighs. my stomach was protesting violently by that time. so i just gave in.
carl's junior starry! hadnt had carl's for an extremely long time. at least a year...

my beef chilli cheese fries! hee. looks gross. but its yummy! and i was trying to convince myself that it was healthy. by adding ALOT ALOT of the tomato cubes salsa. heee.well, at least i tried to increase its nutritional value by adding veggies.

i think my perks will wana strangle me. eating all the food which she wana eat. heee.

meeting zx for my arcade tonight! woots! boohooohoo.

seventh month le! so cant stay out late. better not.

my mum was telling me about a suicide case in amk ytd. sighs. and the victim was a 14 year old kid. i have no idea if its a he or she.but i shall assume its a he.

its like so scary. the kid was so poor that he din have money for meals. he has siblings and their mum seem not to care abt their welfare at all. apparently she just dresses up nicely everyday but dun have the money for them to buy decent meals to fill their stomachs. malnutrition was apparent in all of them. some passerby saw the boy and bought him a pack of rice. after eating, the boy was grateful but he still went to ask for $2 to buy rice for his siblings. so nice right. but he din go home. instead,he just went to a building and jumped down. i heard it was pretty messy.

how did he find the courage to even jump? hes only 14.gosh.

now i am freaked out.

imperial kitchen again!

2008-07-31T13:55:00.010+08:00

regular EARTHQUAKE at SWENSENS. gosh. another treat from big boss. today is his last day. final final last day. so no more treats le. but the ice cream flavours aint all nice. the choc malt one is nice tho. boo! and the thing i am really glad about is i extended lunch till 330pm! HAHA. what more can i ask for? heavenlY!
went for lunch at imperial kitchen again. this time round with boonee! ehee. short meeting but oh well, its better than nothing. boo!
some veggie pork dumpling ramen. good for weak stomach. boo! nice soup.

xiao long bao! now u see it..

now u dun..boo..

pan fried pork buns! crispy bottom! yummy!

look at the filling!

my dessert. melon sago milk..sweet..milky..chilling..

boonee's almond jelly..fruity and not that strong. heee.

and now i am back in my dreadful office... counting down.. 4 hours!

tunnelling...

2008-07-31T09:00:00.000+08:00

woots! zx enjoys clubbing*alright,to be exact.mambo.*! hahaa. so ahem. i am not alone anymore!

chanced upon this. SOY REDUCES SPERM COUNT! and it has been scientifically proven!oh no. i guess all the guys in our team have very low sperm count already.
and i wonder what new measures will be introduced to boost birth rates. first beby bonus. now...

i gained weight! omg! i dun wan! wonder if its muscle gain or fatty fats. i shall just push everythiing to fatty fats cux i really ate alot these days. i am going to jian fei! but i wonder if i can give up my choc n ice cream...hmm...

its so funny. zx's working mate = my primary sch classmate. and they have been working together all these while without realisng it. haha. lucky i never bad mouth any one of them in front of each other. if not i am so screwed.

foodie!

2008-07-30T16:14:00.005+08:00

when i was feeling really low in the morning, this was what helped me the most. tada! alright. i din eat the whole block. only 4 cubes. heeehee.
and late in the aftn ard 4-ish, this stopped me from falling asleep. heeehe. another farewell treats. choc chip muffin from the particular tanjong pagar shop. and it was still warm when it came into my hands. yummy!

i think i am blogging so much these days. cux i am really bored at work. booo!

fly me to the moon...

2008-07-30T08:32:00.001+08:00

horrible. i was trying to top up my ezlink card at bishant mrt stn and much to my disgust, both machine's nets function dun work.and since the start of the new makeover, i have to make one big detour to get to the other machinies. i felt like such a total bitch when i have to ignore the help offered to me by the mrt stuff to go the detour to top up my card. and i just went off. sighs. cant blame me, its really bloody irritating to be stuck at the machine froever trying to get it to work. but oh well. cityhall seem to be better.

and my mum made me wear a long dress. its like damn long to me. all the way to my kneecap! gosh. i feel ancient. dun even have the time to change. that totally put a grimace on my face for the entire morning.

whats the best way to treat a unfaithful man?DEEP HEAT! haha. damn funny, my funny storybook managed to lift my spirits. the gal just PRETENDED to be really interested in having sex with the guy and poof! she just rubbed DEEP HEAT all over his willy. its damn hilarious. *applause*

progress on my no nail biting policy!
day 1 - i attempted once *oh well maybe twice* but i managed to stop myself in time.
day 2 - monitoring...

maybe my body aches are getting on my nerves too..
and i am so sorry to pangseh silin last min and in the end i oso kana pangseh...
work! i am pretty slack these days...shall try to do more work. like find some stuff for myself to do...make myself useful...

foodie = full

2008-07-29T15:57:00.011+08:00

kuishin bo lunch! so funny! my colleague just whack salmon. and its really plates after plates of raw salmon. they are good man. and tempura,soft shell crab, sushi. the sam usual stuff. well, my main focus was the salmon and the beef sushi is good! i had alot.hee. and tada! my dessert! and i forgt to take my green tea ice cream with choc rice. yummy!
ps. i am not going for any more buffet from now till at least mid august. i can see myself growinig a double chin.
pps. its a free lunch! haha.

and while i was still trying to digest my lunch, another sweet treat came my way. i have no idea what this is. but its smells really nice and sweet. condensed milk with almond flakes. i wonder what time can i eat this. definitely not within this hour.

this is what one does when she is bored. my percy pig.

oh no! 1 ear is gone!

oh nO! piggy cant hear anymore!

oh no! now it cant even see! poor thing.

pardon my boredom. i finished my work. haha.

laughter is the best medicine. HAHA.

2008-07-29T09:07:00.003+08:00

finally had time to stay home at night and watch tv like normal. quite contented with that. laughing at my mum and dad. they are damn cute. i am so regretting what i did ytd. mum fried nuggets and cos nobody wanted to finish it, so i wiped out 6 nuggets all by myself by sitting in front of the tv and munching directly after dinner. now i got a bloody sore throat which is pretty irritating. initially i really din want to eat them. but it seem like such a waste. sighs. i only have myself to blame i guess. and i went to buy a whole family block of blackforest cadbury choc. now all i can do is STARE at it and cant touch it. sighs. double sighs. triple sighs.

work after lunch was such a torture ytd. practically wasted it away. oh well, of course i did work. but you can just sense the lethargic aura in the office. *yawn*seemed like everybody was struggling to stay awake.

new department head came in. and hes pretty senior*ahem ol..d, i mean*somebody said he look scheming? oh well. and i cant really remember his name. so just came up with a nickname for him! hes mr too sweet. heee. the spelling resembles his name. oops.

finished the monk book. felt so bad after reading it. like i am such a sucky person. but at least it gave me the opportunity to reflect upon myself and change my bad habits. instead of complaining and grumbling, i shall think positive! i duno how long i can try to maintain this. but i'll try!

and i want to see my fingernails grow! tho shall not bite! tho shall not bite! this shall be my mantra for the month!if anyone sees me biting, please stop me! i need all the help to kick this basket habit. so far, jac and zx had been actively doing so. heee. and i am grateful for that.

dept lunch today. it has to be halal.so we have got limited choices. and they decided on Kuishin Bo! heehee. jap buffet. thank gawd that its under dept budget. oops. think my waistline has doubled this month.

i can survive today!

wonderful weekend!

2008-07-28T08:22:00.009+08:00

this was what i saw on my way to sdba ytd. so cool yet scary. an ominous big black dog standing on a boat like its the king! cant help but sneak a picture. its really big. jac was like telling me that she'll run away without me if i agitated the dog with my snapshot.boo!
training was shag! like omg. seems like he changed his strategy to active rest! oh my giddy aunt.
and we played a prank on board.haha. made alicia unoad the boat and stand alone on a small piece of muddy shore land to wait for her DARK KNIGHT to save her. HAHA. its all coach's idea. NOT our idea AT ALL. damn funny!
i have no idea why. but i am so glad that the team has a renewed morale. so do i. lets jiayou together ba! love u all!

ps. i miss perks.
look! this is a good meal! treated my mum and sis to SAKURA INTERNATIONAL BUFFET on sat. and luckily theres this new opening promotion at yck stadium. if not think the bill will be doubled. shiok!but ts damn omg. like 1 end theres is the jap village (ri ben chun) and the other end its sakura. ohh. strong competition!

i was so full that i couldnt eat anymore. but how can i miss desserts! so i just took a bite out of EVERYTHING. and made my mum eat for me. muahahah. well. i hid some pieces under plates and bowls.oops.

crayfish laksa,sharkfin soup,sushi,squid,SALMON! gosh. tink i ate almost 20 slices of it all by myself.

the squid is damn nicE!

cereal prawn and black pepper soft shell crab!

and guess what! immediately after the buffet, i went to meet my dear zx for DARK KNIGHT. i didnt feel like sleeping at all after such a heavy lunch. and oomg! dark knight is damn good! but i cant help but shed a few tears here and there esp at the end. hais. shall not be a spoiler. but you guys should really go and watch. definitely better than hellboy and comparable to ironman. maybe even better.batman is damn charming! i totally cant help muttering about the charming-ness of batman to zx. haha.love you nonetheless.muacks.

a long week awaits and i am reading this 'the monk who sold his ferrari' book. quite motivational. and its not that boring. in fact, its quite good with its real life examples. haha. thanks to my colleague who lent me the book.

i love my mummy toO! shes so nice! i just randomly told her that i feel like getting packet milo for work and she went to buy me a whole packet. hee. sweet. and she bought boxes of tissue for me also when i told her i always buy and put on my desk. so i dun mind treating her too all the nice things at all. i promised to treat my whole family to the upcoming 'money not enough 2' also. heee. gona be fun! and i shall ask zx to watch with us too. happy!

mambo!

2008-07-25T16:49:00.008+08:00

had lunch with zx today! heehee. at some imperial palace or kitchen at my office area. yummy!
my sichuan pig intestine noodles soup. its damn nice! espically the pig and the soup!

mixed sauce noodles! nicer than crystal jade and ding tai fung!

the soup looks non-spicy right. but its hot! little peppers and chilli. bluff me! boo!

DESSERT! my all time fav! pan fried red bean paste pancake! good! and note the 2 little bites at the sides. ahha. the proud work of me an dzx! heee. and realised i always nv take our pictures. gosh. shall cam whore more! heee.

tada! pictures! and one word to describe its fun!

mi jac edrea and dexter with his odl sch specs. ahah

weird lightenings!

girls aloud!

party all night!

rawr!

pubbing i guess. ahaha. the pre club programme.

jugs and bottles.

smiles.

charm!

2008-07-25T08:21:00.011+08:00

one of the very few man who can capture my attention. hes damn charming. and the older he gets, the more charm he emits. haha.
he looks so goofy in this picture.
tony! all time favourite eye candy.

one of the sweetest coupple i have ever seen...

pre mambo treats. i think they are the main contributor to my gastrics. and of cux the alcohol. but the grease is the ult.

oily as they are, they are simply good treats. complete with mushroom soup, fries,garlic rice,fish,mushrooms,mussels,prawns.

tada! all gone!

cleaned!

me and ang! heehee. shes a damn funny and fun dance partner. we had a great time mimicking some couples. and its the first time ever i puked in a club. gosh. damn gross. had a puking bag with me. haha. luckily it was after dancing for quite some time. if not i'll be really pissed. but wish i didnt. it would be so much more fun.

drank all sorts of drinks, some sour apple alcohol which tastes really like zapple. haha. cant even taste much alcohol.den there was the whisky dry,long island tea,ribena volka? have no idea. it was just jugs and jugs of drinks passed around. ahha.

luckily i had nice mingyang to fetch me home. if not think i am dead. gona be nagged at by mum. and i hid the puking part from her! by the time i reached home, i managed to stop my puking. hee. and to my dear perks, so sorry for cutting the session so soon. i know you would love to stay longer. me too. bleah. we shall mambo again! haha. tho i would very much prefer ahem.

my dear perks and me!

jac and me!

alicia and me!

muahaha. we were just cam whoring in the toilet after dinner.

totally awesome!

2008-07-23T13:58:00.003+08:00

can they have a membership scheme? then i can be a member and at least get some rebates. heehee. had this BANANA STRAWBERRY CREAM icecream. omg. heavenly! words cant descibe the nice-ness. heehee.

even the subway lunch seem to pale in comparison. i think i wana have a weekly affair with silin to come try all the exciting flavours from that sinful shop.

gloomy gloomy morning!

2008-07-23T08:20:00.005+08:00

while eating breakfast today with my parents, my funny dad just started commenting on the DARK DARK sky. kinda scary. like a twister gona head our way.

i was 'running' to the car when i took this. super gloomy.

when i was still breakfast-ing, it wasnt that bad.

michie's farewell lunch! gelare waffles with CHOCOLATE FUDGE BROWNIE & MACADEMIA NUT ICECREAM & mapple syrup. YUMMY-LICIOUS! theres also the seafood pasta which i ate already and the weird CREAM OF BROCCOLI.

zx driving with his mum beside. quite funny sitting behind and watching them

sentosa!

2008-07-22T08:47:00.016+08:00

wrong sequence again. haha. this marked the end of the orientation out in sentosa. hee.

doesnt it look torturous? sighs, jem was out to 'fix' us. make us walk here and there. haha.

the rest of us were watching the other teams 'suffering'. ahah.

oh my!the sand is HOT! poor things.

mr tall guy looked so tortured. ahah. we had to stand SHOULDER TO SHOULDER. haha. and hes freaking tall.

i wonder whats going on between them.

see how tall mr tall guy is!

mr jem trying to fix us again. haha.

my group!

the advance party!

me and jac trying to jump. but oh well, there is always this time lag which we cant manage.

anyway, i am still recovering from my sunburnt. sian. hope i dun peel like a snake. eeyer.

michie's last day, so its like a farewell lunch today. let me think. crepes or waffles? haha. both are good. such a tough decision.

had my first poa session with her ytd. gosh. realised i forgot quite abit of what i learnt. shall read up abit and refresh my memory.

kinda addicted to the 9pm volleyball show. haha. its gona be exciting today! but dun think i can catch it agaiin. sian-ed.

i am like putting this song on repeat. and sneaking peeks at the video.

catch it.

leaving on a jet plane..brings back memories...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NLqnbEfWkNA

aftns with michie always makes ppl lovey dovey. aiyoyo.

everything i do, i do it for you. from this moment on.

wedding songs...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lr8cs8fUu6E&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdlsj8D1mH4&feature=related

fall for you...

2008-07-21T09:29:00.001+08:00

Such a buggerish Monday morning. Never had I dreaded Monday so much! The first thing that popped into my head when I headed for office was to quickly end my long day and get back into my cozy bed. Woke up with a frantic mum and pain all over my body. The charred face of mine had survived through everything. And even my back which I claimed to be ok ytd seem to be burning now.

My mum was like quite tramatised over 2 lizards which she found in a plastic bag with her cake which is to be offered to the gods. And the disgusting part is their tails are off! Ewww. Even my dad was a lil scared to touch the bag.

Din manage to catch DARK KNIGHT on fri. stupid sinema. Only have the 1st 4 rows left. And I cant stand it. Its gona be a LONG show. Better dun play play. But was quite happy that we din catch it. Both of us were so tired. Ended up at my place to nua. Heehee. But I totally dun mind. *grins*

Saturday was spent at sentosa the whole day! The sun was scorching hot but it drizzled. Dots. Ended up getting burnt again. Oh bugger. As usual, me and jac were too lazy to apply sunblock. Had quite a fun day with the newbies and the team at tanjong beach. Heeehee. Though there were alota happenings that day. We were like playing all the funny games. Monkey. Touch rugby. Captain ball. Concentration game. Animal game. Haha. U name it we play it. Ahha. In the end, after dinner and everything at vivo, i reach home only at 10pm. Tired till no end. Heehee

Sunday is training day. And the 20mins row was GOOD. Felt quite good about it and I can feel everyone on the boat pulling. There were times when we lost focus and some one would start shouting to pull us all back in to the boat again. And I tried twisting hard for every single pull. Tada! Result was sore back and waist for today. And it’s a good sign. That means I really twisted, heeehee. Shall try hard to maintain.The newbies were pretty funny too. Reminded me of what we were like when we first started out.

Ps. The sun was freaking HOT again!

After training, I rushed home to eat macdonalds lunch with my family. Heehe.its been a long time since we had such a lunch tgt. Went zx house after that. And he drove with his mum by his side. Quite funny seeinig the both of them in front. But think I fell aleep alil at the back. Bleah. glad to have spent the whole afternoon and evening together though. Times like these are rare.

Work! Work! Work! I shall get back to work then. Even though theres no govt today. Oops. But I cant stand the amount of work piled up. Gosh. and I have resorted to bringing my moisturer to work. Think I am going to reapply it once every 2 hours all over.even the not burnt arms. nwo i smell like a bottle of walking moisturer. haha. but at least it smells nice. And I shall always remember and not be lazy to apply sunblock for EVERY training!

Ps. Bitching makes me alive.oops.somehow

run the show!

2008-07-18T09:03:00.001+08:00

My department head resigned! Oh my! Even though I dun give a damn about him, I am still pretty affected. Haha. Cause this means that my rice bowl is at stake! Especially now that my current contract is expiring SOON! *end of the month* and its damn funny to hear him talk cork about the company stuff. Like as usual, we call the much hated HR department people L, XL and XXL. Haha. There are only 3 woman inside. And the larger the size, the more disgusting and irritating one gets.

Now I have to wait for L & XXL to decide if they wana extend my contract. Gosh. but my track record there aint that good. Especially the attire part. Bleah. Come on la! Its them! Hmm. I shall bear abit of the fault too.

Good response for the training today! So happy! And some of the girls are GOOD. Like they are in a much better state than me when I first joined. And some of them are pretty chio. Heeehee.

DARK KNIGHT tonight! hope we can get the tix. if the seating sucks, i shall wait fro better seats. eheeeh.

To top it off, I tried my breadie trick on them! Ahhahaha. Girls are so smart! Think only one or two kana con. And guys are dumber? Oops. The stupid maz even attempted to tear my breadie! And one of the new guy really wana eat it. HAHAHA. So funnn! I actually put everything in a breadtalk bag to make it easier to trick people. Oops. Heehe.

I am gona RUN THE SHOW! Hahaha

foodie!

2008-07-17T08:19:00.020+08:00

anitha got this for me. heeehee. so funny. when the stupid ed got hold of it, he just couldnt stop laughing. i wonder why. maybe its the texture that did him in. ewww.

these are the stuff that kept me alive the past week...

fake bread! with decent breadie smell and totally so bread like feel! when i presentedit to my mum, i gave it away. eeyer! cux i just grabbed the bread. and my dad kana con! haha. even after i told him its fake, he insisted that its real. HAHA. thats damn funny!

i decided to repackage the bread and put it in a plastic bag and treat it in THE RIGHT WAY!heeehee. shall see who kana con.

nice mochi from ICIBAN SUSHI! farewell treat from colleague. awww.

feast at bukit timah hawker centre..heehee...

satay beehoon!

satay! waited damn long for the chance to eat satay.

this is damn nice! joce say its too sweet tho. but i cant seem to find it anywhere! sadden.

good gummies to keep me awake during work..

dessert series! damn nice!

popeye meal with boonee at airport! heeehe.

one of the food fair with michie during lunch. heeehee. nice meal.

my work drawer filled with delights. muahaha.

my MARVELOUS CREAM! yummy! i wana go eat some more!

it looks big huh! but its actually quite small. oops.

another sinful lunch with michie. SOUP SPOON!mushroom soup..

with ham n cheese sandwich! heehee.not that economical a lunch. but it was GOOD!

while walking to office this morning, i saw ALOT of shoe sale! oh my. and i am so intrigued. *rawr* feel like buying.... and i resisted the urge to by a new pair ytd and aha. threw away my red heels this morning. *sadden* but its simpy un-wearable anymore. its breaking.

so maybe i can replace it with a new pair....heeeheee